Oh yeah, I forgot to mention…one of my buddies just got into a situation where he got a charge, so Im takin that into account too. Needless to say its letting me see what happens after whole matter if the law gets involved.
-Zep
if I were you, I would find a way to get some major revenge.
Get an STD from a prostitute, then after your next big gangbang with all these so called “friends” let them know that they all now have herpes.
[quote]Zeppelin0731 wrote:
[quote]divad wrote:
registered partly to respond to this. went through the same thing, probably a lot worst.
mum died in my early teenage years after very long drawn out fight with cancer and chemotherapy, dad had a really rough time and basically broke down after her death, i had to look after my little brother a lot and make sure he was ok. other family were of no help and i had exams coming up, and financially things weren’t great.
the tipping point for me came when friends who were the only support i had, basically back stabbed me, talked crap about me behind my back and went out and met up without telling me. subsequently, i had a complete break down, suicide attempts, A LOT of self-harm etc. all during mid to late teens. obviously it wasn’t just them, but they were definitely the tipping point for me.
i still haven’t gotten over it. i wanted to beat the crap out of certain people but at the time i ignored them, cut off all contact, didn’t act at all. was it the right thing? i don’t know, but if i had confronted them about it, maybe hit one of them or even got in a fight, i don’t think it would have been any worst than what i experienced after that. for me there probably wasn’t a right decision, as long as i didn’t go to prison or get a criminal record. i was never a trouble maker or anything.
many people said i had major depression, got professional help (which probably made things worst). i now realise it was repression, not depression. circumstances and individuals are constantly against you. your instincts are perfectly rational. just be smart about whole situation, stay focused on the future, college, uni etc.
felt like getting that off my chest, hope it wasn’t too much.
[/quote]
In the last year, I have been called psychotic regularly. I have been told I have anger issues. I have been called a sociopath. What people have come to know about me at college is that I dont take disrespectful people well (had to have people pull me away from a kid who was baggin on someone who couldnt defend themselves. we made up a couple days later). Truthfully, they are probably right. I dont care about certain people, I snap when I get really pissed, and I guess I have odd interests. I recently walked across a major state school to fight a guy who disrespected my sister. He was at a bar with his fiancee. He wouldnt leave the bar. I was too young to get in, or so they said (I guess some bars wont let you in at 20). I got to talk to his fiancee about what was said, and let her know that it would be the last time he ever said anything about my sister like that. 3 weeks later, he made a public apology at his wedding reception. I was told this by 3 people. My sister was amazed at this as she didnt know that anyone else knew about the comments, let alone that he felt really bad about them (yeah sure he did). Dont get me wrong, I dont like to fight, but sometimes I just get mad and do stupid shit. My friends at school make jokes about some of the things I say when people get me upset. Thanks for the advice everyone. Ive really cooled down in the last couple days, and Ill take it all into account in the next few days and figure out what Im gonna do.
Thanks again,
Zep[/quote]
Anger problems and being a sociopath are nowhere near the same thing. In fact, you probably aren’t a sociopath because you aren’t able to hide your feelings of anger, and also, those feelings of anger seem to originate from compassion for others.
This in no way mean that you don’t have problems (who doesn’t?)
[quote]Oleena wrote:
[quote]Zeppelin0731 wrote:
[quote]divad wrote:
registered partly to respond to this. went through the same thing, probably a lot worst.
mum died in my early teenage years after very long drawn out fight with cancer and chemotherapy, dad had a really rough time and basically broke down after her death, i had to look after my little brother a lot and make sure he was ok. other family were of no help and i had exams coming up, and financially things weren’t great.
the tipping point for me came when friends who were the only support i had, basically back stabbed me, talked crap about me behind my back and went out and met up without telling me. subsequently, i had a complete break down, suicide attempts, A LOT of self-harm etc. all during mid to late teens. obviously it wasn’t just them, but they were definitely the tipping point for me.
i still haven’t gotten over it. i wanted to beat the crap out of certain people but at the time i ignored them, cut off all contact, didn’t act at all. was it the right thing? i don’t know, but if i had confronted them about it, maybe hit one of them or even got in a fight, i don’t think it would have been any worst than what i experienced after that. for me there probably wasn’t a right decision, as long as i didn’t go to prison or get a criminal record. i was never a trouble maker or anything.
many people said i had major depression, got professional help (which probably made things worst). i now realise it was repression, not depression. circumstances and individuals are constantly against you. your instincts are perfectly rational. just be smart about whole situation, stay focused on the future, college, uni etc.
felt like getting that off my chest, hope it wasn’t too much.
[/quote]
In the last year, I have been called psychotic regularly. I have been told I have anger issues. I have been called a sociopath. What people have come to know about me at college is that I dont take disrespectful people well (had to have people pull me away from a kid who was baggin on someone who couldnt defend themselves. we made up a couple days later). Truthfully, they are probably right. I dont care about certain people, I snap when I get really pissed, and I guess I have odd interests. I recently walked across a major state school to fight a guy who disrespected my sister. He was at a bar with his fiancee. He wouldnt leave the bar. I was too young to get in, or so they said (I guess some bars wont let you in at 20). I got to talk to his fiancee about what was said, and let her know that it would be the last time he ever said anything about my sister like that. 3 weeks later, he made a public apology at his wedding reception. I was told this by 3 people. My sister was amazed at this as she didnt know that anyone else knew about the comments, let alone that he felt really bad about them (yeah sure he did). Dont get me wrong, I dont like to fight, but sometimes I just get mad and do stupid shit. My friends at school make jokes about some of the things I say when people get me upset. Thanks for the advice everyone. Ive really cooled down in the last couple days, and Ill take it all into account in the next few days and figure out what Im gonna do.
Thanks again,
Zep[/quote]
Anger problems and being a sociopath are nowhere near the same thing. In fact, you probably aren’t a sociopath because you aren’t able to hide your feelings of anger, and also, those feelings of anger seem to originate from compassion for others.
This in no way mean that you don’t have problems (who doesn’t?)[/quote]
Here’s what a sociopath is:
[quote]Fletch1986 wrote:
[quote]Oleena wrote:
[quote]Zeppelin0731 wrote:
[quote]divad wrote:
registered partly to respond to this. went through the same thing, probably a lot worst.
mum died in my early teenage years after very long drawn out fight with cancer and chemotherapy, dad had a really rough time and basically broke down after her death, i had to look after my little brother a lot and make sure he was ok. other family were of no help and i had exams coming up, and financially things weren’t great.
the tipping point for me came when friends who were the only support i had, basically back stabbed me, talked crap about me behind my back and went out and met up without telling me. subsequently, i had a complete break down, suicide attempts, A LOT of self-harm etc. all during mid to late teens. obviously it wasn’t just them, but they were definitely the tipping point for me.
i still haven’t gotten over it. i wanted to beat the crap out of certain people but at the time i ignored them, cut off all contact, didn’t act at all. was it the right thing? i don’t know, but if i had confronted them about it, maybe hit one of them or even got in a fight, i don’t think it would have been any worst than what i experienced after that. for me there probably wasn’t a right decision, as long as i didn’t go to prison or get a criminal record. i was never a trouble maker or anything.
many people said i had major depression, got professional help (which probably made things worst). i now realise it was repression, not depression. circumstances and individuals are constantly against you. your instincts are perfectly rational. just be smart about whole situation, stay focused on the future, college, uni etc.
felt like getting that off my chest, hope it wasn’t too much.
[/quote]
In the last year, I have been called psychotic regularly. I have been told I have anger issues. I have been called a sociopath. What people have come to know about me at college is that I dont take disrespectful people well (had to have people pull me away from a kid who was baggin on someone who couldnt defend themselves. we made up a couple days later). Truthfully, they are probably right. I dont care about certain people, I snap when I get really pissed, and I guess I have odd interests. I recently walked across a major state school to fight a guy who disrespected my sister. He was at a bar with his fiancee. He wouldnt leave the bar. I was too young to get in, or so they said (I guess some bars wont let you in at 20). I got to talk to his fiancee about what was said, and let her know that it would be the last time he ever said anything about my sister like that. 3 weeks later, he made a public apology at his wedding reception. I was told this by 3 people. My sister was amazed at this as she didnt know that anyone else knew about the comments, let alone that he felt really bad about them (yeah sure he did). Dont get me wrong, I dont like to fight, but sometimes I just get mad and do stupid shit. My friends at school make jokes about some of the things I say when people get me upset. Thanks for the advice everyone. Ive really cooled down in the last couple days, and Ill take it all into account in the next few days and figure out what Im gonna do.
Thanks again,
Zep[/quote]
Anger problems and being a sociopath are nowhere near the same thing. In fact, you probably aren’t a sociopath because you aren’t able to hide your feelings of anger, and also, those feelings of anger seem to originate from compassion for others.
This in no way mean that you don’t have problems (who doesn’t?)[/quote]
Here’s what a sociopath is:
That doesn’t really cover the more interesting aspects of the disorder’s personality, like their ability to charm, manipulate, lie, and not have a problem with controlling others for their own pleasure. That doesn’t really sound like the OP, from what he’s written here.
[quote]Oleena wrote:
[quote]Fletch1986 wrote:
[quote]Oleena wrote:
[quote]Zeppelin0731 wrote:
[quote]divad wrote:
registered partly to respond to this. went through the same thing, probably a lot worst.
mum died in my early teenage years after very long drawn out fight with cancer and chemotherapy, dad had a really rough time and basically broke down after her death, i had to look after my little brother a lot and make sure he was ok. other family were of no help and i had exams coming up, and financially things weren’t great.
the tipping point for me came when friends who were the only support i had, basically back stabbed me, talked crap about me behind my back and went out and met up without telling me. subsequently, i had a complete break down, suicide attempts, A LOT of self-harm etc. all during mid to late teens. obviously it wasn’t just them, but they were definitely the tipping point for me.
i still haven’t gotten over it. i wanted to beat the crap out of certain people but at the time i ignored them, cut off all contact, didn’t act at all. was it the right thing? i don’t know, but if i had confronted them about it, maybe hit one of them or even got in a fight, i don’t think it would have been any worst than what i experienced after that. for me there probably wasn’t a right decision, as long as i didn’t go to prison or get a criminal record. i was never a trouble maker or anything.
many people said i had major depression, got professional help (which probably made things worst). i now realise it was repression, not depression. circumstances and individuals are constantly against you. your instincts are perfectly rational. just be smart about whole situation, stay focused on the future, college, uni etc.
felt like getting that off my chest, hope it wasn’t too much.
[/quote]
In the last year, I have been called psychotic regularly. I have been told I have anger issues. I have been called a sociopath. What people have come to know about me at college is that I dont take disrespectful people well (had to have people pull me away from a kid who was baggin on someone who couldnt defend themselves. we made up a couple days later). Truthfully, they are probably right. I dont care about certain people, I snap when I get really pissed, and I guess I have odd interests. I recently walked across a major state school to fight a guy who disrespected my sister. He was at a bar with his fiancee. He wouldnt leave the bar. I was too young to get in, or so they said (I guess some bars wont let you in at 20). I got to talk to his fiancee about what was said, and let her know that it would be the last time he ever said anything about my sister like that. 3 weeks later, he made a public apology at his wedding reception. I was told this by 3 people. My sister was amazed at this as she didnt know that anyone else knew about the comments, let alone that he felt really bad about them (yeah sure he did). Dont get me wrong, I dont like to fight, but sometimes I just get mad and do stupid shit. My friends at school make jokes about some of the things I say when people get me upset. Thanks for the advice everyone. Ive really cooled down in the last couple days, and Ill take it all into account in the next few days and figure out what Im gonna do.
Thanks again,
Zep[/quote]
Anger problems and being a sociopath are nowhere near the same thing. In fact, you probably aren’t a sociopath because you aren’t able to hide your feelings of anger, and also, those feelings of anger seem to originate from compassion for others.
This in no way mean that you don’t have problems (who doesn’t?)[/quote]
Here’s what a sociopath is:
That doesn’t really cover the more interesting aspects of the disorder’s personality, like their ability to charm, manipulate, lie, and not have a problem with controlling others for their own pleasure. That doesn’t really sound like the OP, from what he’s written here.[/quote]
I have experience dealing with a borderline to full sociopath and I’m very aware of that. It’s amazing how well they can negatively affect someone’s life when they decide to go on all out war against someone. Also amazing how they can spin the blame around so well. 
Anyway…
It did mention it, but it just kind of glossed over it.
Here’s a better one.
http://www.mcafee.cc/Bin/sb.html
I don’t think OP is sociopathic either. It sounds like a label people put on OP to make him feel bad and/or lower his credibility or they just don’t know what one is.
It does sound like OP has anger issues though and I suggest that you (OP) at least talk to a counselor. I promise, they don’t bite and it’s as confidential as you want (assuming you don’t discuss anything that would cause harm to yourself or others).
[quote]Fletch1986 wrote:
[quote]Oleena wrote:
[quote]Fletch1986 wrote:
[quote]Oleena wrote:
[quote]Zeppelin0731 wrote:
[quote]divad wrote:
registered partly to respond to this. went through the same thing, probably a lot worst.
mum died in my early teenage years after very long drawn out fight with cancer and chemotherapy, dad had a really rough time and basically broke down after her death, i had to look after my little brother a lot and make sure he was ok. other family were of no help and i had exams coming up, and financially things weren’t great.
the tipping point for me came when friends who were the only support i had, basically back stabbed me, talked crap about me behind my back and went out and met up without telling me. subsequently, i had a complete break down, suicide attempts, A LOT of self-harm etc. all during mid to late teens. obviously it wasn’t just them, but they were definitely the tipping point for me.
i still haven’t gotten over it. i wanted to beat the crap out of certain people but at the time i ignored them, cut off all contact, didn’t act at all. was it the right thing? i don’t know, but if i had confronted them about it, maybe hit one of them or even got in a fight, i don’t think it would have been any worst than what i experienced after that. for me there probably wasn’t a right decision, as long as i didn’t go to prison or get a criminal record. i was never a trouble maker or anything.
many people said i had major depression, got professional help (which probably made things worst). i now realise it was repression, not depression. circumstances and individuals are constantly against you. your instincts are perfectly rational. just be smart about whole situation, stay focused on the future, college, uni etc.
felt like getting that off my chest, hope it wasn’t too much.
[/quote]
In the last year, I have been called psychotic regularly. I have been told I have anger issues. I have been called a sociopath. What people have come to know about me at college is that I dont take disrespectful people well (had to have people pull me away from a kid who was baggin on someone who couldnt defend themselves. we made up a couple days later). Truthfully, they are probably right. I dont care about certain people, I snap when I get really pissed, and I guess I have odd interests. I recently walked across a major state school to fight a guy who disrespected my sister. He was at a bar with his fiancee. He wouldnt leave the bar. I was too young to get in, or so they said (I guess some bars wont let you in at 20). I got to talk to his fiancee about what was said, and let her know that it would be the last time he ever said anything about my sister like that. 3 weeks later, he made a public apology at his wedding reception. I was told this by 3 people. My sister was amazed at this as she didnt know that anyone else knew about the comments, let alone that he felt really bad about them (yeah sure he did). Dont get me wrong, I dont like to fight, but sometimes I just get mad and do stupid shit. My friends at school make jokes about some of the things I say when people get me upset. Thanks for the advice everyone. Ive really cooled down in the last couple days, and Ill take it all into account in the next few days and figure out what Im gonna do.
Thanks again,
Zep[/quote]
Anger problems and being a sociopath are nowhere near the same thing. In fact, you probably aren’t a sociopath because you aren’t able to hide your feelings of anger, and also, those feelings of anger seem to originate from compassion for others.
This in no way mean that you don’t have problems (who doesn’t?)[/quote]
Here’s what a sociopath is:
That doesn’t really cover the more interesting aspects of the disorder’s personality, like their ability to charm, manipulate, lie, and not have a problem with controlling others for their own pleasure. That doesn’t really sound like the OP, from what he’s written here.[/quote]
I have experience dealing with a borderline to full sociopath and I’m very aware of that. It’s amazing how well they can negatively affect someone’s life when they decide to go on all out war against someone. Also amazing how they can spin the blame around so well.
Anyway…
It did mention it, but it just kind of glossed over it.
Here’s a better one.
http://www.mcafee.cc/Bin/sb.html
I don’t think OP is sociopathic either. It sounds like a label people put on OP to make him feel bad and/or lower his credibility or they just don’t know what one is.
It does sound like OP has anger issues though and I suggest that you (OP) at least talk to a counselor. I promise, they don’t bite and it’s as confidential as you want (assuming you don’t discuss anything that would cause harm to yourself or others).[/quote]
Honestly, I tried a couple counselors. And, not to sound typical, but they dont give a shit about me. They want money. I dont get along well with counselors as I feel they teach you how to cover shit up, rather than fix it.
-Zep
[quote]Zeppelin0731 wrote:
[quote]Fletch1986 wrote:
[quote]Oleena wrote:
[quote]Fletch1986 wrote:
[quote]Oleena wrote:
[quote]Zeppelin0731 wrote:
[quote]divad wrote:
registered partly to respond to this. went through the same thing, probably a lot worst.
mum died in my early teenage years after very long drawn out fight with cancer and chemotherapy, dad had a really rough time and basically broke down after her death, i had to look after my little brother a lot and make sure he was ok. other family were of no help and i had exams coming up, and financially things weren’t great.
the tipping point for me came when friends who were the only support i had, basically back stabbed me, talked crap about me behind my back and went out and met up without telling me. subsequently, i had a complete break down, suicide attempts, A LOT of self-harm etc. all during mid to late teens. obviously it wasn’t just them, but they were definitely the tipping point for me.
i still haven’t gotten over it. i wanted to beat the crap out of certain people but at the time i ignored them, cut off all contact, didn’t act at all. was it the right thing? i don’t know, but if i had confronted them about it, maybe hit one of them or even got in a fight, i don’t think it would have been any worst than what i experienced after that. for me there probably wasn’t a right decision, as long as i didn’t go to prison or get a criminal record. i was never a trouble maker or anything.
many people said i had major depression, got professional help (which probably made things worst). i now realise it was repression, not depression. circumstances and individuals are constantly against you. your instincts are perfectly rational. just be smart about whole situation, stay focused on the future, college, uni etc.
felt like getting that off my chest, hope it wasn’t too much.
[/quote]
In the last year, I have been called psychotic regularly. I have been told I have anger issues. I have been called a sociopath. What people have come to know about me at college is that I dont take disrespectful people well (had to have people pull me away from a kid who was baggin on someone who couldnt defend themselves. we made up a couple days later). Truthfully, they are probably right. I dont care about certain people, I snap when I get really pissed, and I guess I have odd interests. I recently walked across a major state school to fight a guy who disrespected my sister. He was at a bar with his fiancee. He wouldnt leave the bar. I was too young to get in, or so they said (I guess some bars wont let you in at 20). I got to talk to his fiancee about what was said, and let her know that it would be the last time he ever said anything about my sister like that. 3 weeks later, he made a public apology at his wedding reception. I was told this by 3 people. My sister was amazed at this as she didnt know that anyone else knew about the comments, let alone that he felt really bad about them (yeah sure he did). Dont get me wrong, I dont like to fight, but sometimes I just get mad and do stupid shit. My friends at school make jokes about some of the things I say when people get me upset. Thanks for the advice everyone. Ive really cooled down in the last couple days, and Ill take it all into account in the next few days and figure out what Im gonna do.
Thanks again,
Zep[/quote]
Anger problems and being a sociopath are nowhere near the same thing. In fact, you probably aren’t a sociopath because you aren’t able to hide your feelings of anger, and also, those feelings of anger seem to originate from compassion for others.
This in no way mean that you don’t have problems (who doesn’t?)[/quote]
Here’s what a sociopath is:
That doesn’t really cover the more interesting aspects of the disorder’s personality, like their ability to charm, manipulate, lie, and not have a problem with controlling others for their own pleasure. That doesn’t really sound like the OP, from what he’s written here.[/quote]
I have experience dealing with a borderline to full sociopath and I’m very aware of that. It’s amazing how well they can negatively affect someone’s life when they decide to go on all out war against someone. Also amazing how they can spin the blame around so well.
Anyway…
It did mention it, but it just kind of glossed over it.
Here’s a better one.
http://www.mcafee.cc/Bin/sb.html
I don’t think OP is sociopathic either. It sounds like a label people put on OP to make him feel bad and/or lower his credibility or they just don’t know what one is.
It does sound like OP has anger issues though and I suggest that you (OP) at least talk to a counselor. I promise, they don’t bite and it’s as confidential as you want (assuming you don’t discuss anything that would cause harm to yourself or others).[/quote]
Honestly, I tried a couple counselors. And, not to sound typical, but they dont give a shit about me. They want money. I dont get along well with counselors as I feel they teach you how to cover shit up, rather than fix it.
-Zep[/quote]
Your school doesn’t offer free counseling?
If they are just saying you are an asshole I don’t know why you would care. You should try getting a handle on your emotions, such that they are not dictating your behavior in a way that fucks up your life. Maybe before you get physical with someone you should try using your words. A little bluster usually will go a long way, especially if you back it up with confidence and you would gain more status from your wussy friends by demonstrating some control. Unless they mean you are a badass when they say you are psycho. If this is the case, you are getting butt hurt over nothing. In the end this is most important, getting a handle on your emotions so they are not fucking up your life.
[quote]Fletch1986 wrote:
[quote]Zeppelin0731 wrote:
[quote]Fletch1986 wrote:
[quote]Oleena wrote:
[quote]Fletch1986 wrote:
[quote]Oleena wrote:
[quote]Zeppelin0731 wrote:
[quote]divad wrote:
registered partly to respond to this. went through the same thing, probably a lot worst.
mum died in my early teenage years after very long drawn out fight with cancer and chemotherapy, dad had a really rough time and basically broke down after her death, i had to look after my little brother a lot and make sure he was ok. other family were of no help and i had exams coming up, and financially things weren’t great.
the tipping point for me came when friends who were the only support i had, basically back stabbed me, talked crap about me behind my back and went out and met up without telling me. subsequently, i had a complete break down, suicide attempts, A LOT of self-harm etc. all during mid to late teens. obviously it wasn’t just them, but they were definitely the tipping point for me.
i still haven’t gotten over it. i wanted to beat the crap out of certain people but at the time i ignored them, cut off all contact, didn’t act at all. was it the right thing? i don’t know, but if i had confronted them about it, maybe hit one of them or even got in a fight, i don’t think it would have been any worst than what i experienced after that. for me there probably wasn’t a right decision, as long as i didn’t go to prison or get a criminal record. i was never a trouble maker or anything.
many people said i had major depression, got professional help (which probably made things worst). i now realise it was repression, not depression. circumstances and individuals are constantly against you. your instincts are perfectly rational. just be smart about whole situation, stay focused on the future, college, uni etc.
felt like getting that off my chest, hope it wasn’t too much.
[/quote]
In the last year, I have been called psychotic regularly. I have been told I have anger issues. I have been called a sociopath. What people have come to know about me at college is that I dont take disrespectful people well (had to have people pull me away from a kid who was baggin on someone who couldnt defend themselves. we made up a couple days later). Truthfully, they are probably right. I dont care about certain people, I snap when I get really pissed, and I guess I have odd interests. I recently walked across a major state school to fight a guy who disrespected my sister. He was at a bar with his fiancee. He wouldnt leave the bar. I was too young to get in, or so they said (I guess some bars wont let you in at 20). I got to talk to his fiancee about what was said, and let her know that it would be the last time he ever said anything about my sister like that. 3 weeks later, he made a public apology at his wedding reception. I was told this by 3 people. My sister was amazed at this as she didnt know that anyone else knew about the comments, let alone that he felt really bad about them (yeah sure he did). Dont get me wrong, I dont like to fight, but sometimes I just get mad and do stupid shit. My friends at school make jokes about some of the things I say when people get me upset. Thanks for the advice everyone. Ive really cooled down in the last couple days, and Ill take it all into account in the next few days and figure out what Im gonna do.
Thanks again,
Zep[/quote]
Anger problems and being a sociopath are nowhere near the same thing. In fact, you probably aren’t a sociopath because you aren’t able to hide your feelings of anger, and also, those feelings of anger seem to originate from compassion for others.
This in no way mean that you don’t have problems (who doesn’t?)[/quote]
Here’s what a sociopath is:
That doesn’t really cover the more interesting aspects of the disorder’s personality, like their ability to charm, manipulate, lie, and not have a problem with controlling others for their own pleasure. That doesn’t really sound like the OP, from what he’s written here.[/quote]
I have experience dealing with a borderline to full sociopath and I’m very aware of that. It’s amazing how well they can negatively affect someone’s life when they decide to go on all out war against someone. Also amazing how they can spin the blame around so well.
Anyway…
It did mention it, but it just kind of glossed over it.
Here’s a better one.
http://www.mcafee.cc/Bin/sb.html
I don’t think OP is sociopathic either. It sounds like a label people put on OP to make him feel bad and/or lower his credibility or they just don’t know what one is.
It does sound like OP has anger issues though and I suggest that you (OP) at least talk to a counselor. I promise, they don’t bite and it’s as confidential as you want (assuming you don’t discuss anything that would cause harm to yourself or others).[/quote]
Honestly, I tried a couple counselors. And, not to sound typical, but they dont give a shit about me. They want money. I dont get along well with counselors as I feel they teach you how to cover shit up, rather than fix it.
-Zep[/quote]
Your school doesn’t offer free counseling?[/quote]
They do, and lets just say that it blows. Its some old motherfucker who is completely detached from the world because he is a self professed intellectual who lives in books and ideals. He actually said “im going to teach you to be your own best friend. to live with yourself as if your best friend was in the room.” I DONT NEED A FUCKING IMAGINARY FRIEND!
I tried another woman who said my rage was completely justified.
The only person I talk to that helps me is my priest. Strangely eventhough I struggle so much with religion, he is able to help me out, and some of ths scripture we look at calms me down/comforts me when im absolutely ragin.
-Zep
[quote]Scrotus wrote:
If they are just saying you are an asshole I don’t know why you would care. You should try getting a handle on your emotions, such that they are not dictating your behavior in a way that fucks up your life. Maybe before you get physical with someone you should try using your words. A little bluster usually will go a long way, especially if you back it up with confidence and you would gain more status from your wussy friends by demonstrating some control. Unless they mean you are a badass when they say you are psycho. If this is the case, you are getting butt hurt over nothing. In the end this is most important, getting a handle on your emotions so they are not fucking up your life.[/quote]
I dont think that that is the case. It would be nice to be looked at with respect, but I feel it is the opposite.
-Zep
[quote]Zeppelin0731 wrote:
Dear T-Nation,
Consider this a vent/advice session.
(And, to all the trolls…bring it! You will only fuel me.)
I have just found out that some people I met at college last year, and considered good friends, have been talking bad about me the entire time that I have known them. You know the people…nice to your face, talk shit behind your back relentlessly. I just found out about 5 minutes ago. It is currently 4:07 am and I am slightly upset. You know that feeling you get when your arms and legs get cool and your stomach settles? How your hands start to feel…well, light and start to shake a little? You know, when youre about to literally rip someones head off? Where I come from, we settle things like this in a reasonable way, in the park, at the cages for basketball, where the law of the land is put up or shut up. However, I am currently 70 miles from said people, and would probably face charges and lose scholarship because they dont have the same kind of way of dealing with issues as they do where I am from. So…My question to T-Nation for tonight is, how do I bottle this up and unleash it tomorrow in the weight room, and from there on? How should disloyalty be handled in this case of act and lose a lot, or not act and be a bitch? (I am seriously at the end of my wits with these people and am leaning toward cracking some skulls.)
Sincerely,
A very pissed Zep.[/quote]
You simply excise them from your life. They did you a favor. Talk is cheap. And we do not need imagined motivations for the weight room. The drive to be better is sufficient.
[quote]Zeppelin0731 wrote:
I am pissed at them, I am pissed that I didnt see it coming, I am pissed that I trusted them, I am pissed that their parents never taught them to be decent people, and that they think money is all that matters, I am pissed that everything they have has been given to them, I am pissed that they have never had a hard day in their life, I am pissed that they would throw me under the bus at their own convienience, I am pissed that they wont say it to my face, I am pissed that I am looked down on for what I like, I am pissed that they were born, I am pissed that they breathe, I am pissed that they are ok with the fact that they think that just because they talk amongst themselves that I wouldnt find out sooner or later, I am pissed that they are the antithesis of everything that I have been raised on, everything that I have been taught, everything that I believe, everything that I AM…
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If the above is indeed true, perhaps it is your lack of judgment that is the problem here.
Ok, I may seem like an angry person, but that is because quitting, excuses, ingratitude, disrespect, arrogance, disloyalty, superficiality, selfishness, hopelessness, wasted talents, and perfectionists piss me off. There is so much of it in the world. I wont block it out as I believe that awareness is greater than ignorance. So if you were wondering why I get so pissed, that is why. I believe that to tolerate it is to say that it is ok, so I let people know in the simplest and most direct way I can when I disagree, and what is going to happen to them if they dont knock it off. I dont care if I get my ass beat, or if I come off like a jerk. I cant sleep at night if I dont stand up for what I think is right. These posts are proof of that.
Thanks again for the input everyone.
-Zep
[quote]TheBodyGuard wrote:
[quote]Zeppelin0731 wrote:
I am pissed at them, I am pissed that I didnt see it coming, I am pissed that I trusted them, I am pissed that their parents never taught them to be decent people, and that they think money is all that matters, I am pissed that everything they have has been given to them, I am pissed that they have never had a hard day in their life, I am pissed that they would throw me under the bus at their own convienience, I am pissed that they wont say it to my face, I am pissed that I am looked down on for what I like, I am pissed that they were born, I am pissed that they breathe, I am pissed that they are ok with the fact that they think that just because they talk amongst themselves that I wouldnt find out sooner or later, I am pissed that they are the antithesis of everything that I have been raised on, everything that I have been taught, everything that I believe, everything that I AM…
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If the above is indeed true, perhaps it is your lack of judgment that is the problem here. [/quote]
Perhaps. I have no fucking clue.
-Zep
Ok, these people, the same fuckers, have officially just pissed me off for the last time. Im gonna crack some skulls. I did nothing to deserve treated like this and im not gonna take it any more. I dont give a fuck if I get a charge, I dont give a fuck who it hurts. If they want trouble, they found it. This in my eyes is totally worth an M3 and possibly some time.
Thanks for the advice people, some of it was real good, from the heart, shit. I appreciate that. None of you can talk me out of what is probably going to happen in the next 20 minutes. Thanks again.
-Zep
You have to learn to care more about yourself.
You seriously care more about these shit-heads getting what they deserve than you getting what you deserve (which is an education and a life with other people who care more)? How the fuck is that justice?
You’re being the worst kind of martyr.
And yes, that was a waste, I just needed to say it.
Best advice I ever got: From my HS gym teacher, who also had to teach Health class. (Wrestling coach was also the sociology teacher now that I think of the double duties) They guy was a farm raised old dude that would tell it like it was. My Frey. Anyway, someone was complaining about other people talking shit on them and Mr Frey said “If its true, change it; if it’s not true, ignore it.”
Living well is the best revenge.
or just KILL THEM AND RAPE THEIR BITCHEZ BRAH
