I never got that, but I never took more than 200mg/wk of Deca.
But also note: I never heard of “deca dick”
I never had performance anxiety in the back of my mind. I didn’t believe AAS use would affect sexual performance as long as you were taking some testosterone. No one talked about it (there was no internet when I was using.)
Not if you’re prone to it. Its a roll of the dice, but majority of men don’t get it.
Is a week or two long enough, at all, for your liver to experience any kind of relief from the oral AAS before going back on? Even if taking something like NAC or TUDCA, I think your liver deserves more time to “heal” (not really heal, but you know what I mean).
If I read right you are on 500mg test weekly anyway, and that is likely having little impact on your liver or lipids.
You’re not the first to feel this way, but it’ll be the end of your health and longevity if you can’t accept that you’ll lose a bit of size and strength during this “cruise” periods so your organs can return to normal, even if just for a bit.
What are you doing to mitigate blood pressure, lipids, high RBC?
awesome thank you i think ill be adding deca to mt stack,
on another note, i ran 800mg test400 (1cc x2 a week ) and i was veiny as fuck forearms looks like a leaf the gf loved it,then on week 5 i switched to test250 1cc x2 and i lost all my veins except a few bicep veins and ive been going way harder in the gym too, any idea why? went from crazy veins to no veins, my buddies run 200mg a week and are still veiny as fuck
That seems odd to me. The more I lifted the larger my forearm veins got. Even at 74 the nurses love to see come in to have blood drawn.
My vein size never dropped when I was cycling those 3 decades, regardless whether I was no cycle or off cycle (that I could tell.)
Can anything be irresponsible when you are the only one responsible for yourself? Technically, tons of stuff people do is irresponsible then. Any major sport, any extreme type of activity. The thing Americans do with the bulls and the clowns is just as irresponsible, so is Nascar, and technically any contact sport also. I believe there are more ruined lives and crippled bodies in these activities than there ever will be from taking a bit too much of anadrol.
Anyways, its not the point, just wanted to comment on that.
I, on the other hand, respect this approach because it is us who make the choices and it takes guts to admit that yours differ from most people.
If more people would just admit they would be shit parents so they dont want kids, it would solve a lot of problems, instead of basically everyone having kids because “thats what we do”.
As far as the age and dying thing. My GF is obsessed about different beauty things and lots of em are not healthy but she explained this differently : “i am willing to give away life from 70-80, to look like i want now when im 30”. It also makes sense. At least where i am from, the life from your 50s dont really have much potential. Up to the 60 is where you might try do good but after that its mostly shit. And if you can double up on fun in your 30s and 40s in exchange for being a starving, sick corpse at 65+ its a good exchange(we dont have that American thing where old people just stop working and somehow their lives get better… you stop working you get 100USD and fuck off).
Just don’t run tren.
Never…
When you feel it, anything else will be insufficient.
And side effects - you are not aware of all of them until you stop.
If you want to dedicate few years, go blast and cruise, I know top notch competitors who are on 150 to 200mg weekly of Test between blasts (2 times a year, 12 to 16 weeks).
You need to get rest to your body or you will fry your CNS big time with blasting non stop.
And stay away from orals as much as you can.
I def agree with you here. BUT, he was looking for “proper” responses as he doesn’t seem to have knowledge on what he is doing. You can feel however you want but making a statement like that in a public place I think is irresponsible. Younger people than us read theses boards and are influenced.
There is a saying in my native language that doesnt sound good in english, but the idea is smth like “if you get erection on dudes, changing the penis wont help”… the idea is - if a person can be influenced by a forum, by a game, by someone that 50 cent said, or whatever, then you can ban and censor everything, he will find a way to be stupid anyways 
Truer words were never spoken.
Also, as someone who participated in the sport of rodeo for most of my 20s, I’ve never heard it described quite this way:
Love it!
Again I agree fully with you on that point. My point is that I’ll try not to perpetuate the stupidity.
What I respect the most in honesty. First to yourself and then to others.
We feel what we feel. My 25 year old self, thinks much differently than my 74 year old self. That just is what it is.
It is a shame that a person needs to be careful (or dishonest, as I see it) when writing on the internet. It would be nice if those of us would allow honesty without the writer worrying about condemnation, or worse.
And a man with integrity will “cash” that “check” like a man. There is no sense in losing your honor along with your life.
It’s not that we shouldn’t allow honesty. The point of my original comment is that he comes on here saying he is “first time posting so hoping to get proper responses instead of the usual negative feedback ive been reading on the forums (Like bruh nobody is a doctor herewe should help each other out instead of talking shit)” and then he makes a comment like."rather die big at 35 than be called skinny and weak 1 more time.
His honesty can be appreciated but most would not want to give him advice with that attitude.
Granted, none of us are getting out of here alive. All through Genesis chapter 5, “…and he died.”
It is all about integrity! A man has integrity when his actions align with what he says, and more deeply what he believes. If he says or believes he would rather shorten his life than be skinny, then come pay day, if he has integrity, he will own his decision.
I don’t fault those who refuse to give assistance, I just don’t believe that would be a reason for me to refuse. IMO, he needs my thoughts so he can weigh them with what he believes. My fault is I don’t like “wasting my time” with someone that I don’t believe has any chance of achieving a muscular look. If fact, I stoop to labeling them “sinks.” (might just as well shoot those AAS down the sink.)
who gives a fuck though seriously why are you so emotional about this to begin with? if i really gave a fuck about my health and wanted it perfect i wouldnt be on anything and neither would you, we’re all playing the same game here with the same goals-getting bigger. And the reality is that any of these supps are ‘bad for you’ , tell me how to safely smoke crack while youre at it , your response was plentiful without the bitching. hence my original statement about “negative feedback” i could die at 35 because somebody bigger raped and killed me , rather be happy than a bitch help me get bigger or gtfo man like why keep going ?
I think he mostly replied to me and some others about WHY he has that opinion and it was respectful and i agree with his view and i have to respect it.
In here we have mostly careful and a bit smarter people, who try to do this the smartest and safest way possible.
Me and some maybe 2-3 others here are on the similar boat as you. Reading you doing Anadrol and wanting to do it again after 2 weeks will make most users eye twitch here. For me it was like “bruh i did like 12 month on Dbol and Stanazolol when i was 23” so its much more understandable for me.
I wouldnt say i wanna die at 35, thats why i get my organs and heart checked every few years, but if it would happen that i had done something to myself, id just have to accept it, because i would never give away the way i lived up till now.
EDIT : As far as you getting bigger… Is there a reason why Anadrol? You already have a test base, right? Why not up that? Push 1g of Test… do orals 8 weeks on, 8 weeks off, and try different ones to see what works better and what does not.
I think a lot of test would be a bit easier on the liver than anadrol, EVEN THO, the toxicity of orals is still a bit overrated, because my liver values are like 50% high, but they are exactly like that for as long as i remember myself, and no matter what orals i take they kinda just stay the same place… The USG of all organs said everything looks fine.
i spent the last 25 years of my life getting fucked with being 6ft3 155lbs, now im 180 and put on lean mass its like a second puberty and im not even kidding when i say i dont care about the consequences , the pros outweigh the cons immensly for me theres no going back.
and for him to repeat “you dont know shit about this” is pretty ignorant considering most of us havent sat down with an actual endocrinologist and gained most their knowledge through forums like these, word of mouth of friends & trial an error. also we cant even prove our gear is 100% pure , we just go with it. im not on this for transgender bullshit im strictly trying to get as big as i physically can.
i also respected what he said at first but he just kept going .
reply to your edit : i was on 800mg test first 4 weeks (T400 1cc 2x week) , insane veins and confidence then my guy said drop it to 500 (t250 E 1cc 2x a week) and lost the veins 
should i go back to 800? he said test isnt a muscle building compound but that doesnt make sense ?
and i chose anadrol because i read the shoulders and traps have the most androgenic receptors and react more powerfully to the effects of it , i lack in those areas and wanted the boost but after reading all this i feel like Dbol would maybe be better minus the harsh stomach bloating , im losing my abs