Chemo, Radiation and a Stem Cell Transplant

[quote]theBird wrote:
Hey buddy,

Good to see your training is back on track. But I think you should be more positive in the way you view your body. You have obviously been compromised by disease, but you should not refer to your body as “junk”. Sometimes positive thinking can lead to a positive body.

And as for your handstands; a buddy of mine has suggested that one good way to learn how to handstand is to practice in the pool. First do a hand stand in deep water and gradually move towards shallower water until you dont need any water to do a handstand. Does that make sense?

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Good call Bird, I often just need someone like you to remind me that I need to think more positively. Also about the handstands in water. I really couldn’t say. I do know that it definitely couldn’t hurt and it would be a good, non strenuous method of progression. Not to mention that being in a pool always rules and is promoting a healthy lifestyle, while getting a bad ass tan. Sounds good to me. If a friend of yours said it worked for him then I’m sure it’s worth a shot. I would actually give it a try if I had access to a pool, it sounds like fun. I encourage you to go for it because I’m actually really curious now.

Todays’s training went something like :

15 min HIIT cycling - Increased intervals

Just decided to pick one push and one pull that don’t cause me any pain and I’ll simply progress on these two lifts as much as I possibly can. Might not be optimal. but it’s quick, fun, pain free and enjoyable. Like I said on my press I’ll simply increase weight from workout to workout as much as I can, then increase sets, then reps. That should last me a fair while. On my pull I’m not a big fan of adding weight to Chins/Pull Ups so I’ll simply add sets, then reps once I’ve reached 10 sets. I don’t like going over 10 sets. That’s plenty, not to mention by that point I’ll have sucked all the fun out of it and all the progression for the time being.

A1. 5x5 Incline Press - Increased Intensity, will continue to increase the intensity on this as much as I can, then volume

A.2 6x10 Wide Chins - Increased Volume, will continue to increase volume, once I reach 10 sets then I’ll increase intensity

Once I reach 10 sets of max weight on both

P.M - TRX Push/Pull

Tomorrow will be a gymnastics day. Next week I most likely won’t be training Tuesday, Wednesday or Thursday. Have not been feeling good lately and need to go to Washington ASAP to see what exactly’s going on. Coming off corticosteroids and have had some bad inflammation. My mouth and throat has bad sores and my vision’s fucked. I like what I’ve been doing with my diet recently 2 meals a day with the rest just being meal replacement is awesome. I’m never hungry and the convenience rules. Should be great for when I get back into school. Anyways, in no mood to post so I’ll most likely post back tomorrow.

“Be miserable. Or motivate yourself. Whatever has to be done, it’s always your choice.”

Todays training was Push/Pull with switched set/rep schemes. Looked something like this:

15 Min HIIT Cycling

A1. 5x10 Incline Press - Added 5 lbs to the bar

A2. 6X5 Wide Pull Ups - Added a set

(See above for future plan of attack)

P.M - TRX Push/Pull

Training was good and even though I’ve had a 5 lbs increase on all my pressing this week it still felt good and I’ll continue to add weight until I no longer can. A friend of mine also told me about a new web site, that’s apparently pretty popular, but I’ve never heard of it until he mentioned it. It’s called “Marks Daily Apple” I’d recommend anybody to check it out. I’ll definitely be reading and following the site from now on. It had a lot of cool articles and insights on things fitness and nutrition related. It might not have killer workout programs on how to add an inch to your arms in 2 weeks, but the guys a good writer and had interesting points of views on different things, along with great references and controversial topics. He has some interesting stuff about lifestyle along with recipes. For anyone who wants to check it out, I’d go to the site and go to the archives and just start cracking. I read my first 10 articles off the site today and will continue to read 10 every day for as long as I maintain interest. I’ve seen Poliquin reference the site through his as well, so it’s pretty legit. One thing that I read about today on Poliquins blog that I found interesting was how he recommends 8-4. That means going to bed at 8 and waking up at 4. It’s 8 hours of sleep during a time frame that makes sense, but lets you have a substantial amount of time awake everyday to accomplish a shit load of stuff. I’m actually going to give it a shot come school time and see how it goes. I’m curious to see if I’ll be able to do it and have energy. I’ve always wondered how Poliquin is able to be so productive and get so much done, maybe this is his big secret. We’ll see though. It actually does seem decently practical, but if it’s a grind of a lifestyle I won’t stick with it for long.

Uncle Sam - Definitely Not a Pisces | Mark's Daily Apple This was the first article I read off of marks daily apple. Pretty interesting. Morris, check it out. It’s your kind of sight.

Not much time today and my vision is fucked, I’ll post back tomorrow. Cheers.

“The true secret of giving advice is, after you have honestly given it, to be perfectly indifferent whether it is taken or not, and never persist in trying to set people right.”


“Wes…I have to know. I have not personally ever done a myeloablative stem cell transplant, but am fully capable of doing one. A reduced intensity or non-myeloablative transplant is simply not an option for you. There would be absolutely no point. It wouldn’t put you in remission, cure you or save your life. Remember when I told you that I will never tell you that you’re going to die and I won’t, but I’ve looked at your biopsy and a myeloablative transplant is the only potential option. Your body is rampant with Leukemia far worse then we ever expected. This brings me to my next point where I also said that if there’s any chance what so ever that I could save your life I’m at least going to give it a shot. Well, this is that shot. Myeloablative transplants are typically no longer practiced because they have a very high mortality rate by medical standards. A myeloablative transplant is a horrific thing to endure. Me and the team are prepared to go through with one if you are, but I’m going to tell you that there’s many risks involved and things are going to be rough to say the least. People think you get a transplant and that’s it. These next few months after transplant will be worse than any other. I have to know whether you’re prepared to fight for your life.”

  • My doctor and head of the transplant team

Sometimes I have to think back on this and just know that the fight is always worth it. Always. In every situation, under any circumstances you always have options and choices. It may not be a lot and it may not be many, but they’re there. In this case for example, I could have given up or fought. I chose to fight with everything I had. I picked up a copy of mens health at the air port news stand. Some great authors in their by the way. Waterbury, Robertson, Miyaki, Lowrie. It was Miyaki that was featured in a column that talks about giving your all. Even though you might not set a P.R, medal, win or have your best performance on that particular day as long as you gave it your best shot or your best effort. That’s what counts sometimes. Sure, winning’s a plus, but if you win one competition easily and place 2nd in another where you took yourself as a person to new levels, mentally, physically and all the above, that’s something to be damn proud of. If you don’t think so then I can assure you, you’ve never been there. Even for those who don’t make it, as long as they’ve giving it their all, that’s something to be damn proud of. I’m undecided on what actually goes into winning a battle with cancer. Medicine? Strength? Discipline? Luck? Maybe a little of them all. I hate people telling me how strong I am or even people who have survived it and think they’re a living miracle. I’d never dare give them a hard time about it, but still. There’s nothing heroic or overly impressive about surviving the whole thing. In most cases if you’re willing to make some major sacrifices, changes and there’s treatment available…you’ll be fine. Maybe this is easy for me to say now, but I always believed that, even from the beginning. When I went for treatment, I acknowledged I was there with a problem, then realized how we were going to treat it and that it could be treated. That was pretty much the end of the story. The only thing left to do, was to do it. I feel as if some people think it’s someone’s fault for not making it through or they think the person “wasn’t strong enough” people don’t realize that depending on the situation it’s almost entirely out of your control. There are certainly factors that you do have control of, but many that you do not. This has been a good rant. The point is take advantage over what you do have control of. Whether it be little or big, easy or hard.

Anyways, back from D.C Plane was delayed like 6 hours yesterday. Got home at like 4:30 a.m. Training today looked something like this

15min HIIT Cycling

A.1 5x5 Incline Press - added 5 pounds

A.2 7X10 Wide Chins - added a set

P.M TRX Push/Pull - beat total

Felt shitty today. GVHD of my mouth is bad, but got medication so hopefully it will clear up soon. Pressing went good, but Chin Ups felt heavy and sluggish. D.C was alright, relaxed, enjoyed some good restaurants, some junk food and a lot of TV. Now that I’m back, it’s back to business as usual. I’m going to go catch up on some reading. Looks like it’s been a rather good week on T-Nation article wise. Not to mention the humour just keeps getting better. I’m going to go catch up on Poliquin’s blog, Marks Daily Apple and head over to my buddy’s B-day party. No drinks for me tonight, I feel like shit, but I told him I’d stop by so whatever. I’m also thinking about subscribing to some magazines. In particular Men’s Health and ESPN. Both great reads and very entertaining. Always good authors with great stories. Although it’s not always workout related it picks my brain in the right way. Also that mess of a bowl in my picture is chicken, corn, rice, potato, gwak, sour cream, cheese and lettuce…awesome. Post back tomorrow, cheers.

“Show class, have pride, and display character. If you do, winning takes care of itself.”

Worked on my gymnastics moves today. Actually felt really good. I’ve drastically increased the leverage on my L-Sit progression since starting. I continued to work on my L-Sit, Front Lever and Hand Stand Push Up as usual. I want to talk about my diet a little bit because I’m really enjoying it. I came to the realization that I was eating like I was a muscle and fitness guru or someone off animal pak. I realized that everything in those BB magazines is complete bullshit and garbage. I make a point of not following any of that bullshit. Why would I eat like they do? it’s all I knew and all I’ve known for the last 5 years. I just laugh at the insane inconvenience of eating a legit meal every 2 hours. I mean depending on what’s in the fridge " What? this is my 4th serving of chicken today?" I mean fuck sakes, come on. No one needs these massive quantities of food at random times. I’m perfectly content with throwing a scoop of protein powder in a shaker and grabbing a protein bar for a days worth of nutrition when I go to school, rather than eating a dozen eggs with 12oz of chicken for breakfast. Then having to eat every 2 hours after that. No matter what happens, I simply start my day off with a shake, and then alternate meal, shake, meal, shake. I have to say it’s incredibly simple, convenient and I feel great. I feel a lot better about not taking in an insane amount of unnecessary calories, but still being able to keep my body loaded with protein and amino acids. It also allows a lot more flexibility with both what you can eat and the lifestyle you can live.

On another note as the days go on in my life, I feel more and more pushed to do bigger and better things, learn more, better myself and improve in any way possible. I want to actually see how great of a life that a person can live if he or she sets their mind to making the most out of it each and everyday. The people in my life and everyone I know and have met over the years are really important to me and I’d do anything for some of them on any day. At the same time this worlds a mess and I can’t go out on a limb like that for people who could care less about me when it’s all said and done. As much as I do care about those people and am always willing to help out, I’m at the age and stage in my life where putting myself first is priority. I need focus on me, do my thing, get done what I need to get done. It’s sad to say, but when almost losing my life I realized what a waste of a life I lived. Sounds cliche, but I realized it’s not just me, it’s 99% of people out there. I’m in the position where I literally have the opportunity to do whatever I want with and in my life. It might not be easy, fuck it, it might be hard as hell, but at the end of the day I can do it.

As some of you know I set goals every week, but I set a couple long term goals for the summer as well. They may not have been overly crazy, but I’m damn proud that I saw them through and completed every single one of them. Whether it was save 10 000$ or do something awesome once a month. To look back on your goals and see that you’ve completed them is rewarding. One of the best things I did this summer was get a lot of reading done. Here’s a list of books that I read this summer.

  • Programming and Organization of Training
    -Fundamentals of Special Strength Training in Sport
    -Designing Resistance Training Programs
    -Functional Training for Sports
    -Periodization the Theory and Methodology of Training
    -Building the Olympic Body
    -Serious Strength Training
    -Nutrient Timing for Peak Performance
    -Muscle Revolution
    -Science and Practice of Strength Training
    -Periodization Training for Sports
    -Proprioception and Neuromuscular Control in joint Stability
    -Fitness Professionals Handbook
    -Introduction to Kinesiology
    -Low Back Disorders
    -Essentials of Anatomy and Physiology
    -Transfer of Training in Sports Vol 1
    -Transfer of Training in Sports Vol 2
    -Explosive Lifting for Sports
    -Sports Power
    -The Path to Athletic Power
    -Optimizing Strength Training
    -Science of Sports Training
    -Athletic Development
    -Advanced Sports Nutrition
    -Strength Training
    -The Anabolic Solution
    -Diets Designed for Athletes
    -Promoting Physical Activity
    -Hero Hand Book
    -Built For Show
    -Black Book of Training Secrets
    -A few others, but running out of time…

Every Thib, Poliquin, Cressey, Robertson, Waterbury article on T-Nation. All of poliquins articles off his site, 5 articles off Elite every day and countless other websites from Cressey’s to Mark’s Daily Apple.

This brings me to my next point. Never get down on yourself. It’s hard to do and I can’t say I don’t do it sometimes. Just the other day I was on here describing my body as a piece of junk, but just do your best. Most of the time there’s nothing to get upset about and if there is, it’s probably not that big of a deal. Just realize every day’s an opportunity. At the very least you can get something done, better yourself or maybe have an influence on someone else. Some people don’t understand why I’m like this or why I think this way. Sometimes I wish I didn’t, but like I’ve said before it’s who I am, who I’ve become. I can’t help it.

“I believed I had a responsibility to be a good person, and that meant fair, honest, hardworking and honorable. If I did that, if I was good to my family, true to my friends, if I gave back to my community or to some cause, if I wasn’t a liar, a cheat, or a thief, then I believed that should be enough. At the end of the day, if there was indeed some Body or presence standing there to judge me, I hoped I would be judged on whether I had lived a true life”

If there’s one thing I hate it’s being weak and being average. I think they both go hand in hand and it disgusts me. I also hate people who lie and are hypocrites. People have totally lost sight of being true to themselves and fulfilling their potential. Shit’s weak. There’s a couple things everyone should work on and keep in mind at every point in their life to ensure success and fulfillment. These things are harder to achieve then they seem. Things like drive, passion, desire, but at the very least don’t be things that everyone hates like a liar, cheat or snake. Just keep doing your thing, staying true, being a good, genuine person. Anyway’s it’s P.M training time, so until next time, cheers!

“One thing I never want to be accused of is not working.”

Todays training went something like this

15 Min HIIT Cycling

5x10 Incline Press - Increased 5 lbs

7x5 Wide Pull Ups - Added a set

Today’s training felt awesome. Push/Pull, progression…done. Love it.

I want to talk about dedication. People just don;t understand it and it’s sad, might be the single most important thing a person can possess. To have legit dedication is something to be damn proud of. Looking back on my life in the hospital, I realized I was a man of many things, but a master of nothing. Just like the other 99% of people. To this day it still fucking kills me to say and think that. Physically limited and not passionate about anything from a young age, I’d say my life/career as a professional athlete is down the tubes. That’s just reality though. if I could take it all back man. Saying I have no regrets is simply a lie. Saying I wouldn’t take back a thing if I could is a fucking lie. I swore to myself that when, NOT IF I made it out of the hospital, this would be my 2nd life. March 26th 2010 I was reborn and I will not live in regrets, underachievement, or in a state of waste. I will now set my sights on doing everything I can in an effort of mastering the area of coaching. I don’t want to just be a coach, I want to be the best. Although I didn’t master anything in my youth, I think it was simply because I wasn’t into or interested in anything. No real hobbies, interests, etc. It’s sad and I think it’s a complete waste. But until time machines are invented, it’s something I’ll have to live with and except. All I can do is make a point out of not repeating the same mistakes now. I think the world of athletics is the most amazing thing ever. People simply don’t understand. You see a guy toss a ball on Sunday and yeah, it’s cool, but you don’t know the history behind it. Everything that went into it. Everything that led up to it. The sacrifice, dedication, drive, ambition, work, blood, sweat, tears…everything. For someone to say they want to be the best, an olympic champion as a child and to actually see it through and stand on that podium is mind blowing. That shit takes years upon years of focus, heard work and unimaginable sacrifice. I know guys who can’t see through a goal for the end of the week, like studying for finals. For someone to see a lifelong goal through like that blows my mind. Olympics in particular. Many of those sports are so dependent and directly related to training. ALL some of those guys do is train, eat, practice and sleep for YEARS…DECADES! There’s no going downtown with your buddies, no eating this, doing that bullshit. You wake up at the same time, go to bed at the same time, train at the same time, eat the same shit day in and day out. People think being an athletes easy. To have that type of commitment and dedication is something few people will ever have in them. It takes years of that same dedication before you can even say you’re passionate enough about it to be serious.

“I have no idols. I admire work, dedication and competence.”

“He had a lot of talent, but didn’t have much dedication, wasn’t organized, didn’t know how to learn, didn’t know how to comprehend what he was doing, didn’t try to learn how to get better.”

“Confidence doesn’t come out of nowhere. It’s a result of something… hours and days and weeks and years of constant work and dedication.”

“I learned patience, perseverance, and dedication. Now I really know myself, and I know my voice. It’s a voice of pain and victory.”

“In order to excel, you must be completely dedicated to your chosen sport. You must also be prepared to work hard and be willing to accept constructive criticism. Without one-hundred percent dedication, you won’t be able to do this.”

“Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith and belief in yourself, vision, hard work, determination, and dedication. Remember all things are possible for those who believe.”

I have to say that I did possess a great level of drive, determination and discipline for a guy who wasn’t really passionate about anything. I just think it’s amazing that a guy can run 4.4 and be just that…a guy. He’s just joe blow sitting on the couch at home telling his buddies how he was “that close” to making it. Guy beside him ran a 4.2, he’s got a career and 10’s of millions of dollars. Pretty wild stuff. There’s talk about parents pushing there kids around as babies to improve their balance and proprioception skills for gymnastics. I mean, to spend your life chasing one shot, one goal, one dream is amazing. Whether or not it would be worth it, many will never know. Mainly because they’re not chasing shit. You go to the olympics…A FUCKING LIFETIME OF BUILD UP and you got nothing but ONE CHANCE, ONE SHOT to give it your best, EVERYTHING you got. You blow that ONE chance and you may never have that opportunity again…never.

I’m always curious to see how much of a sacrifice these guys would consider it to be though, I mean if you were so passionate about it that you wouldn’t trade it for the world, love doing it so much that you wouldn’t have it any other way, how would you feel?

“I remember where I came from. It’s so important to know where you are and I know where I am right now. How do you go from where you are to where you want to be? And I think you have to have an enthusiasm for life, a dream, a goal and you have to be willing to work for it. I just got one last thing I urge all of you, all of you, to enjoy your life. The precious moments you have, to spend each day with some laughter and some thought, to get your emotions going, to be enthusiastic everyday. To keep you dreams alive in spite of problems, whatever you have, the ability to be able to work hard for your dreams to become true, become a reality. Now I look at where I am and I know what I want to do. what I would like to be able to do is to spend whatever time I have left to give and maybe give some hope to others. Don’t give up, don’t ever give up. And that’s what I’m going to try and do every minute that I have left, I will thank god for the day and the moment I have. And if you see me smile and maybe give me a hug because that;s important to me to. Cancer can take away all my physical abilities. It cannot touch my mind, it cannot touch my heart and it cannot touch my soul. Time is very precious to me. I don’t know how much I have left and I have some things that I would like to say. Now I’m fighting cancer, everyone knows that. People ask me all the time about how you go through your life and how’s your day and nothing has changed for me”

Fucking awesome. Post back tomorrow, cheers!

“And on that field sometimes today, all it will be between you is a look, no words…just a look that will say everything.”

Hi buddy,
Looks like you had read lots of books. Any books that you recommend?
Your diet sounds interesting, although personally I would rather to stick to 1 protein shake a day, 2 max.

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[quote]theBird wrote:
Hi buddy,
Looks like you had read lots of books. Any books that you recommend?
Your diet sounds interesting, although personally I would rather to stick to 1 protein shake a day, 2 max.

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I used to feel the same way Bird, but for convenience sake and for change I think this many shakes a day is awesome. As for books, it really depends what you’re into. I find most nutrition books to be really repetitive. For nutrition I like Mauro D and his Anabolic Diet. For training I anything through Human Kinetics is good. I like a lot of books on Elite as well, although most are available through HK. Also any books that any of the authors on here have written. I’d recommend picking an author that you like on here, seeing as you already have a feel for their writing and pick up a copy of one of their books. I tell newbs if they read a copy of Thibs Black Book of Training Secrets, they’ll get way better results than going out and buying/taking a tub of N.O Explode. I like the authors on here’s books for practicality’s sake. A lot of books are just irrelevant study references. Poliquins books are great, Waterbury, Nate Green, Cressey, Robertson. It really depends on how much science you want to be involved.

Why I have not been eating like this for ever remains a mystery. I could have completely avoided being a fat kid if i would have. I think I’m seeing body composition improvements daily. Not to mention it’s so easy, it’s ridiculous. Todays training went good, happened to go something like this:

15 min HIIT

5x5 Incline Press - Added 5 lbs

8x10 Wide Chins - Added a set

"Luke is getting weaker. They stopped chemo. His marrow isn’t making normal cells. We’re making the most of each day. I feel so blessed to be his mom. "

Awhile back, I talked about my friend Luke. A friend I met and lived with in the hospital. He’s 17. I sent him an email to see how he was doing, but never heard back. I can’t say I blamed him for not replying, I’m sure checking his email, let alone writing and sending one’s the last thing on his mind. I always did my best to hit people back, but it wasn’t a reality at one point. I decided to send his mom an email to see how he was doing, knowing that things were not going very well. I guess it’s just hard for me to understand and I guess I just don’t get it. I mean, why the disease does what it does to some people is something I just don’t understand. Probably never will. I can’t tell you how often I see people with average prognosis’ and doctors tell them what they have, what needs to be done and tell them all there’s left is to do it and they’ll be on their way before they know it. 2 months later they’re gone. I had a bad prognosis, on top of a bad prognosis, on top of a bad prognosis and it just seems like a distant memory for me. Something that I tell people is that it was small part of my life that did effect me in a big way, but it was a small part of my life that is irrelevant to me now. It’s obviously changed me and made me a completely different person, whether I wanted it to or not, but I always find myself reassuring people that it’s over. I don’t even fear it coming back even though I’m a high risk patient. I just couldn’t believe reading the email and just having an instant flash back of what I swear was yesterday and actually last summer. Last summer it was us sitting in the hospital talking about what we wanted to do when we got out of there. I remember the 2 of us going to Stephen Strausburgs’ debut game in Washington. Was 1 year ago. To open that email, read it and think “I don’t even think twice about this shit anymore” and to realize everything that I’ve done and been able to do since I’ve been home. Just thinking “Oh my god…that was one year ago…that was me last summer, this summer life’s 100% back to normal.” Just thinking about everything I’ve had the privilege to do this summer…hang out with friends, party, go to the gym…everything. I remember sitting in my hospital room just looking out my window one day as usual. As I sat there and watched cars drive by like I had never fucking scene such a thing, scanning a car as it’s driving towards me and then following it with my head as it goes by as long as I could keep it in my sight, I realized something. See when I was in the hospital all I did was get high 24/7. I would have my cell phone alarm set and get a whole wack of medication every 4 hours. I would set it for every 3.5 hours knowing that sometimes it takes awhile for the nurses to come in and knowing the last thing I wanted to do was for this buzz to wear off. That day it was taking an exceptionally long time and it was past 4 hours. For a split moment, the first time in months, my buzz wore off. Something hit me that day, I realized that time had just flew by and asked myself where the time had gone. As I realized how incredibly fucked up the situation was I realized I was 1000 miles away from home, I had not talked to anyone in like a year, when was I going to go home? What has everyone been up to? What had everyone been doing? Where has everyone been at? Just thinking about things I used to think about like Who’s been having parties? What have I missed out on? I felt a cold realization poor over me, I had a sudden jolt of emotions overwhelm me, I freaked out feeling cold sweats and chills. My heart started to race and I had a pit that hit my stomach like I just took an upper cut. I ran to my bathroom and looked in the mirror. The last time I took a good, hard look at myself, I was at my prime. What I saw threw a fear over me like never before. I was bald, tubes running through me in every direction, 130lbs, blood shot eyes, a ghostly tone to my skin and 2 tears running down either side of my face. It was like for the first time it had hit me. I knew I had to get out of there. I realized at that very moment what I had been through and what I had to do. I knew I was getting out of there. To think what this kids been through and how young he is just doesn’t sit well with me. It’s so incredibly sad to see anyone lose their life this way, let alone when they’re 17. Had a transplant relapsed, developed 2 more types of cancer for a total of 3 and now he’s ran out of options. To think what he must be going through right now. To know that you’re just waiting it out, to know that your life is going to be over just blows my mind. Something that nobody’s in any position to deal with at that age. Pretty bent out of shape about it though, post back tomorrow.

Todays training was just gymnastics moves, which is always fun. Went something like this:

L-Sit work
Front Lever Work
Hand Stand Push Up work

I totally agree with Waterbury that this stuffs great and that the way you can train it is amazing. Yes it’s intense but without the axial loading, training frequency rules change. I always feel fresh and like I’ve progressed every time I have a gymnastics day.

“Many of us talk about “real life” a lot, but few of us discuss how to deal with our goals and vision of ourselves and the reality of the constraints of life.”

That’s from Dan Johns article today. I’ve always been a fan of Dan Johns material. I think his simplicity and effectiveness are awesome. I like the fact that he promotes a healthy and well balances lifestyle. He’s acknowledged that there’s a lot more to life than muscle. He still encourages everyone to take it seriously and to reach their potential, but within reason. I think I’d definitely be down to do program like that if my time constraints were really limited. There’s no doubt it would be effective and a great change of pace. I’ll definitely keep it in mind for hectic times.

“Because you’ll meet each other in the streets in 30 years time and they’ll just be a look…and you’ll know just how special somedays in your life are.”

-McGeechan

This guys passion and speeches are awesome. His words are deep and he’s got a great tone. Watching his videos I hope everyone has the opportunity to be in a situation like that or experience something like that. Those are the moments that separate the average joe’s life from a life well lived.

I subscribed to both Men’s Health and ESPN. I also placed a rather large shipment to amazon that I’ll talk more about tomorrow.

I don’t have a lot of time tonight, but will post back tomorrow. Cheers.

“It’s simultaneously so complex, yet so simple”

Was part of last post…


Todays training went something like this:

15 min HIIT Cycling

5x10 Incline Press - Added 5 lbs, after the next 5 I think I’ll be tapped out and start adding sets.

8x5 Wide Pull Ups - Added a set, I was supposed to go keep going till I’m at 10 sets, but it takes a long time, I think I might just ass reps, we’ll see.

Overall it felt great though, was super pumped and got a good lift in. Just enjoying it seeing as school’s starting next week. I plan on going up and staying out really late Saturday night, waking up early as hell Sunday, so that I can go to bed early Sunday night and wake up early Monday. This will be the start of resetting my carcadian rhythm for school. Class begins on Wednesday and I want to go to bed at 8 and wake up at 4 everyday. This way I’ll train before I even go to school in the morning and have the rest of my days to study like hell. I can already tell this isn’t going to be an easy adjustment, but I love a challenge and think it will be one of the most beneficial things I ever do for myself. My chest is also on fire. Not my muscles, but my skin. If this is GVHD of the skin I’m going to lose my shit. I really hope it’s not because if you google that shit it’s probably one of the most repulsive things a person can have, not to mention it burns and hurts like fucking hell. Treatment sucks balls to. I don’t think it is because typically GVHD of the skin is something that you get within 100 days post transplant at which point you can just easily reactivate it, but I never had GVHD of the skin to begin with, so there wouldn’t be any such thing as reactivating it.

Yesterday I talked about how I recently subscribed to ESPN magazine and Mens Health Magazine. I also put in an order on amazon where I ordered :

-The soul of a Butterfly “Reflections on Life’s Journey”
-Lion Man the Autobiography - Ian Mcgeechan
-Through My Eyes - Tim Tebow
-Built For Show - Nate Green - a must own
-Comeback 2.0: Up Close and Personal - Lance Armstrong
-Kobe Bryant - The Game Of His Life
-ESPN 30 for 30 BOX SET!!!
-Don’t Give Up…Don’t Ever Give Up with DVD “The Inspiration of Jimmy V and an Uncommon Look at the Game of Life”

So pumped it’s insane. This order could change a man’s life. I’m really excited for all the books, but on top of that ESPN’s 30 for 30 DVD set. If anyone’s ever seen ESPN’s 30 for 30 its a series that ESPN did on 30 epic stories in sports. They’re 30 of the most amazing episodes of a show I’ve ever seen. I have not watched all of them, so this shit’s literally keeping me up at night, I can’t wait. Where the hell has amazon been my whole life, fuck that site rules.

My newest addition to things I’ll be doing from now on is to :

"1. Fill out your Grateful Log before going to bed

I consider this my top tip to sleep properly. It is very simple. All you need is a diary and a pen. I ask clients to write down a full page of things they are grateful for before going to bed. Clients who comply to this advice always report amazing gains in ability to fall asleep and stay asleep. Ever hurt your fingers and then realize how important they are in your day? You become more grateful for them when they heal again. I ask clients to write down at least 10 things that they are grateful for. Every sentence should begin with either I am grateful for or Thank You for It is very calming for the mind and it helps you look at the World in a positive light before falling asleep. It prevents the mind from racing all night, and enriches the quality of your sleep. The rule is very simple, what you appreciate, appreciates. Every single client who regularly uses the grateful log has seen an increase in the quality of their lives, their sleep, and the riches coming in.

  1. Answer three key questions before you to go bed, and do so by writing them in your Grateful Log

     What did you do that was nice to someone today?
     What did someone do nice for you?
         What did you learn today?
    

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Answering those questions will put your life in perspective, reset your brain on positive, and allow you to sleep better."

It’s off of Poliquins site and I think it could do wonders. Although I do think about everything that I’m greatful for each and every day almost every second of every minute. It’s still a good reminder. I’m going to be keeping a thick ass journal by my bedside at all times from now on. Also if you have not read this article of of Poliquins site on the benefits of Fish Oil…do so now.

http://www.charlespoliquin.com/Blog/tabid/130/EntryId/118/Why-Fish-Oils-Are-The-Most-Important-Supplement.aspx

I’ll repeat that…do it now. If the link didn’t work go to Blog archives, November and it’s the first article.

I continued reading Marks Daily Apple today and I must say I love this site, just think about this

“The unfortunate consequence of a little sprinkling of caloric information could be relative gluttony; the easing of the conscience because 650 calories is better than 970 calories. At most, I predict a temporary blip in increased chicken sandwich orders before everyone reverts right back to whatever bacon-cheese-beef monstrosity is normally favored.”

"Our problem is far more troubling: it is emotional. Our problem as a nation is food addiction. The fact that bacon-cheese-beef monstrosities even exist is evidence enough of that. Like alcoholism, Americans are in an emotionally addictive grip that I fear no amount of intervention or good intentions can resolve. Alcoholics cannot function normally. They cannot stop their behavior even when death is a very real possibility. Consider how many Americans cannot even do a simple push-up or a jog around the park. How many require larger seats on airplanes and in restaurants? How many can keep up with their children? How many have balanced blood sugar levels so that they do not feel anxious, stressed or depressed by daily life? How many millions of Americans are affected by food addiction? Certainly more than those affected by alcoholism. This is addiction on a massive scale, with entire industries, diet books, diet foods, diet pills, health care, surgery, exercise gimmicks, pharmaceuticals created in service to the addiction.

The rational has gone out the window, please pull forward to the second window.

How do we cure the addiction? Do we numb it with drugs? Attempt to sate the cravings with diet foods like an alcoholic might with a non-alcoholic beer? Find a crutch to prop us up, like government or schools or support groups? Is that freedom or slavery by another name?

How do we cure it? Tell me."

I encourage everyone to think about this. Could it be any more true? They should fucking tax fat people. At school I’ll sit in the library and try to find someone who’s not morbidly obese. It makes me sick. How the fuck can these people continue to be burdens on society with billions of dollars in health care a year. I met people in the sates, fucking kids and their families couldn’t afford their treatment. They had cancer, did nothing to deserve it and the doctors will go “Sorry, tough luck” Meanwhile fucking guy smoking 2 packs a day, eating nothing but Mcdonalds gets 6 surgeries and as he’s recovering stuffing his face with Mcdonalds because he’s been under the knife for an hour he just thinks to himself “Fuck, I can’t wait to have a smoke” Being fat is not healthy and can have adverse effects on everyone’s health in so many ways. People have their prognosis’ greatly effected by simple, controllable things like diet, exercise and healthy lifestyle. I can’t take to see overweight kids, it just kills me. I’m not saying put your baby on the V-Diet, but cook the kid a fucking meal. Maybe it’s not peoples fault? I mean the prices on healthy foods? Why buy chicken breast when you can get a lifetime supply of Chips for $0.89 at Kroger. For those of you who have not been to the U.S the serving sizes and proportions are FUCKING INSANE. A small pop? What in the fuck? You call that shit a small? That’s 2L of pop man? I mean you really don’t have any choice but to live in disgust over there. Yeah you got the small, it was the best you could do, but it doesn’t mean shit! Not to mention the government doesn’t give a fuck about your health, he’s worried about MAKING MONEY! If I had the funding I’d do a documentory where I followed the U.S food pyramid in a 30 day or “x” amount of time and track how fast my health went to absolute shit. It’d be a great doc. I’m going off on a rant and need to hit a meal though. Post back later, cheers!

“There are days like this when many people never have it, never experience it. It is special. I can tell you these are the things, these are the days that you would never believe would come again. But I can tell you it has. I’ve given a lot of things up and when you come to a day like this you know why you do it all. You know why you’ve been involved, it"s been a privilege, and it is a privilege because there something special. Because you’ll meet each other in the streets in 30 years time and they’ll just be a look and you’ll know just how special some days in your life are”

Loving your log dude, very insightful. You have made me painfully aware of how far to the sideline reading in general has become for me lately, this is something I very much need to change. I definitely notice a change in my mood when I am taking the time out every day to read versus when I don’t. Thanks for reminding me!

[quote]phlegms wrote:
Loving your log dude, very insightful. You have made me painfully aware of how far to the sideline reading in general has become for me lately, this is something I very much need to change. I definitely notice a change in my mood when I am taking the time out every day to read versus when I don’t. Thanks for reminding me! [/quote]

Thanks for following man, appreciate it. As far as reading, when I tell people I read they look at me like I’ve lost my mind. I can’t believe what I’ve learned just over the course of this summer through reading. I find it a lot easier to read if you just ask yourself “what am I doing?” when you find yourself doing something utterly pointless, like watching a TV show you don’t give two shits about. I’m all for chilling, relaxing and having a good time, but reading can be an extremely rewarding hobby. People think it sucks because most just remember reading god awful books like Shakespeare in High School. Reading in those days and still is an absolute punishment. I went through my entire high school career without ever finishing a book from back to front or even close. Find some good material and it’s a breeze, not to mention the positive benefits. Eventually you just find yourself as a guy who knows so much shit about so much shit. It’s pretty cool. Anyways, thanks for following, cheers.

Hi little buddy,

I like your new methods of positivity. A positive mind is everything.
I need to start reading some of theses books. Do you have a kindle?
I dont like the Mens health magazine. Im not sure if we get the edition as you here in Australia, but our version is full of innacurate advice. In one edition they were demostrating how one should squat, and the guy in the picture was squatting on his toes!!
And I agree about everything you say regarding fat people. I try to be compassionate and understanding, but surely once you get to such a heavy weight you would look into your diet etc…

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[quote]theBird wrote:
Hi little buddy,

I like your new methods of positivity. A positive mind is everything.
I need to start reading some of theses books. Do you have a kindle?
I dont like the Mens health magazine. Im not sure if we get the edition as you here in Australia, but our version is full of innacurate advice. In one edition they were demostrating how one should squat, and the guy in the picture was squatting on his toes!!
And I agree about everything you say regarding fat people. I try to be compassionate and understanding, but surely once you get to such a heavy weight you would look into your diet etc…

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Bird I’m glad to see you’re following and like how you keep on top of me, offering kind words and reminding me of things. Mens Health is something I read more for fun. It’s not really about the training and nutrition advice for me. I do find great tips by great authors in it, like Waterbury etc, but for the most part it’s about the lifestyle, sex, recipes and positive lifestyle promotion. As far as fat people, I’m the same way Bird. Anyone who knows me knows that I’m one of the nicest people you’ll ever meet and for most people the nicest they know. I always tell people I’m not an asshole, I’m just honest. A big difference. An asshole is mean just to be mean. A man who’s honest is something that very few are and he will and should speak the truth whether people want to hear it or not. It’s not always easy, but anyone can respect it. I go to the National Institutes of Health and many hospitals where “us” “the people” are paying billions in taxes for people that can prevent everything they have to go through by making lifestyle changes, such as diet, exercise etc. It’s just something to think about. THE FUTURE OF HEALTH CARE FOR MANY THINGS INCLUDING THE NUMBER ONE CAUSE OF DEATH IS PREVENTION NOT TREATMENT. Heart Disease is the number one cause of death. These disorders are generally not inherited, they are developed and when they’re developed out of pure irresponsibilty, I CANNOT SYMPATHIZE! Have a great weekend Bird, Cheers!

Cell phone alarm didn’t go off today, woke up a little late. Went to the gym and worked on my gymnastics moves. Felt good and as usual, a ton of fun. That’s what matters most. Went something like this.

L-Sit - 10 x 6 seconds = total of 60 seconds
Front Lever work - 10 x 6 seconds = total of 60 seconds
Hand Stand Push Up Progression- 3 x 5

As some of you may know from reading I had a post where I talked about “I remember when” whether it was not being able to leave the ground when trying to jump post transplant or whether it was me taking 1 hour and 15 minutes to walk across the street from where I was staying to the hospital. I averaged about 10m per 20 minutes that day. Anyways one of them was the fact that when I came home I benched the bar 3 times and needed help on the 4th. I was in the gym today and after my training 135 was sitting on the bench, so I went over and rep’d it for 15 not to failure. Obviously it’s not impressive, but I’ve came a long way from where I started back. As long as I’m improving myself each and every day then I’m happy.

I don’t know if anyone’s ever got the chance to speak to someone before they’re about to lose their life, but if you have it can be extremely sad and depressing or it can be one of the most life changing, shocking, eye opening experiences of your life. For me to talk to someone right before their life is about to end and to have them be at complete peace with the idea. To have them acknowledge that yes, this situation sucks, but at the same time realize they lived a good life, had a good run and are taking no regrets or shame with them is probably one of the most amazing, respectful things I or anyone can think of. For someone to let go and know that during their time they made good, laughed, cried, loved and were blessed with an amazing opportunity called life that so many of us take for granted is truly a sight to be seen. I and many people can not honestly say they would be able to do that. To know that today could be your last is something that would sit pretty bitter with most and there’s not anything wrong with that. I can’t genuinely say that I would be at peace with it. Not a chance. Whenever I talk to someone who is though, I cannot tell you how happy I am for that person. It takes a person with balls to be able to look you in the eyes and say that. For a person to be so strong and be able to looks their loved ones in the eyes and tell them that this isn’t so bad. For a person who’s about to lose their life to sit their and have to tell the people he loves and that love him that this isn’t so bad. It’s incredible. I’ve been so close to that situation and I can tell you I was in no way satisfied. So now I know what I want to do and what I want to do is to make sure that when or if that situation shall come again that when it does, I will be satisfied. That’s all I want to comment on the topic.

“I just got one last thing I urge all of you, all of you, to enjoy your life. The precious moments you have, to spend each day with some laughter and some thought, to get your emotions going, to be enthusiastic everyday. To keep you dreams alive in spite of problems, whatever you have, the ability to be able to work hard for your dreams to become true, become a reality. Now I look at where I am and I know what I want to do. what I would like to be able to do is to spend whatever time I have left to give and maybe give some hope to others.”

Just think about that. I will never stop thinking about that quote.

“Monday Moment: One of Mark’s essential rules for life is forgiveness. Learn to forgive people and not for them, either. It’s for you! That’s why forgiveness is so great: it frees up head space so you can feel good about yourself and your life. We don’t forgive others when they goof or hurt us so that they can go on living happily ever after forgiveness is so you can live happily ever after. Don’t invest in thinking about how your boss, your neighbor or a pal has hurt you. It does take energy to learn a new habit (like letting go) but try it a few times and it will become old hat. It’s easier to feel good than it is to feel bad, so as the old Asian proverb goes, if you’re holding a hot coal, drop it!”

This is true. Forgive, but never forget. Life’s to short. I do not spend time fighting with people that I love and actually care about. All I want to do is laugh with them, have fun with them, make memories with them. I’m not feeling to good about writing this though, so I’ll post back another time. Cheers.

“Your present circumstances don’t determine where you can go; they merely determine where you start.”

[quote]EF5127 wrote:

[quote]phlegms wrote:
Loving your log dude, very insightful. You have made me painfully aware of how far to the sideline reading in general has become for me lately, this is something I very much need to change. I definitely notice a change in my mood when I am taking the time out every day to read versus when I don’t. Thanks for reminding me! [/quote]

Thanks for following man, appreciate it. As far as reading, when I tell people I read they look at me like I’ve lost my mind. I can’t believe what I’ve learned just over the course of this summer through reading. I find it a lot easier to read if you just ask yourself “what am I doing?” when you find yourself doing something utterly pointless, like watching a TV show you don’t give two shits about. I’m all for chilling, relaxing and having a good time, but reading can be an extremely rewarding hobby. People think it sucks because most just remember reading god awful books like Shakespeare in High School. Reading in those days and still is an absolute punishment. I went through my entire high school career without ever finishing a book from back to front or even close. Find some good material and it’s a breeze, not to mention the positive benefits. Eventually you just find yourself as a guy who knows so much shit about so much shit. It’s pretty cool. Anyways, thanks for following, cheers.[/quote]

I definitely need to start reading for fun a lot more. When I’m back to classes for university I’m having to power through 5 or 6 atrociously dense history books a week just to maintain my academic status quo, which kind of killed the reading for fun part of me. I think I definitely need more fiction in my life!

[quote]phlegms wrote:

[quote]EF5127 wrote:

[quote]phlegms wrote:
Loving your log dude, very insightful. You have made me painfully aware of how far to the sideline reading in general has become for me lately, this is something I very much need to change. I definitely notice a change in my mood when I am taking the time out every day to read versus when I don’t. Thanks for reminding me! [/quote]

Thanks for following man, appreciate it. As far as reading, when I tell people I read they look at me like I’ve lost my mind. I can’t believe what I’ve learned just over the course of this summer through reading. I find it a lot easier to read if you just ask yourself “what am I doing?” when you find yourself doing something utterly pointless, like watching a TV show you don’t give two shits about. I’m all for chilling, relaxing and having a good time, but reading can be an extremely rewarding hobby. People think it sucks because most just remember reading god awful books like Shakespeare in High School. Reading in those days and still is an absolute punishment. I went through my entire high school career without ever finishing a book from back to front or even close. Find some good material and it’s a breeze, not to mention the positive benefits. Eventually you just find yourself as a guy who knows so much shit about so much shit. It’s pretty cool. Anyways, thanks for following, cheers.[/quote]

I definitely need to start reading for fun a lot more. When I’m back to classes for university I’m having to power through 5 or 6 atrociously dense history books a week just to maintain my academic status quo, which kind of killed the reading for fun part of me. I think I definitely need more fiction in my life! [/quote]

Yeah man, I can’t honestly say I read like this when class begins. For that period all you do is read those books over and over. School’s number one priority, so no worries.


Todays training went something like this :

15 min HIIT Cycling

5x5 Incline Press - Increased by 5lbs

9x10 Wide Chins - Added a set

Training felt pretty good, I think I’m just about tapped out on weight progression for my incline press. I think I’ve got about 2 more increments in me. If that. I’ll start adding in reps or sets, depending on the circumstances. I might go back and see how long I’ve exactly been doing this, maybe switch up the stimulus completely, but I don’t really feel that it’s necessary to get too far away from basic movements in my case. Besides I’ve always loved the Incline press. I think it’s a great movement and probably the best predictor of upper body strength. It also has great transfer due to the angle of your arms relative to your torso throughout the pressing.

P.M training was TRX Push/Pull

Tomorrow will be gymnastics work. Somethings I’m starting to focus on for this is properly extending and contracting my legs prior to raising and extending my legs into the L-Sit position. For my Front Lever I’m starting to focus on thinking about locking my back into a straight position before I raise myself into the position and increasing the leverage of my lower limbs. Hand Stand Push Up progression involves increasing the vertical angle at which I’m performing them.

“People exist for each other. Then either improve them, or put up with them. Either change, or let go. Doing the same thing wonâ??t get you anywhere but where you are!”

This is true. I encourage everyone to set goals and see them through. This doesn’t always involve doing things that you’re comfortable with. I think it’s important that people try new things. Whether this means trying new foods to incorporate into your diet, choosing a new author to follow or experiencing new things. There’s so many things that people don’t know they love because they’re simply so set in their ways. I think I’m going to start setting goals specifically for trying new things. Who knows what i might be missing out on?

I’ve been reading about a lot of not so typical supplements lately on Poliquins site. These things have a lot more to do with ingredients. I think I might give a couple new things a shot. I have not quite decided what yet, but I think I’m going to try and put something together. This will involve me putting together supplements, nothing proprietary. I’m not big of supplements, but some of these ingredients can be found for so dirt cheap that I think it’s worth a shot.

Anyways, that’s all the time I have today. Post back tomorrow, cheers.

“Show me someone who has done something worthwhile, and I’ll show you someone who has overcome adversity.”