aw. maybe it isn’t ‘courage to address it’ maybe it is just ‘time to take special care of myself’. i try and have little things (a lotion i like, some treat to eat, some book etc) that i save for times when i need to relax and unwind. even when a lot of those times correlate to certain points in my biological cycle.
i needed to read the caption to make sense of what i was seeing looking at nigel’s gob. wow that is a funny shot! your unicorn looks really cool. very cute puppy indeed. is he settled in alright?
Poor Nigel! He looks happy with his balls, do you have to take them? =(
Video tape him coming home from the doc. When I spade my dog, she had the cone around her head and she was so depressed!
I was also learning how to drive and that was the first time she ever saw me behind the wheel.
She was even more depressed! She just kept looking at me, sighing and putting her head down lol
Catching up with the Bold and Brutiful. I know a lot of people seem to carry stress in their neck, shoulders and back. Maybe some good massage? And I know you aren’t rally supposed to stretch your back, but hanging on the captains chair sometimes feels sooo good. I imagine it decompressing everything that might be compressed.
And the tatoo angst is about the fish on your belly, right? I really, really like that one. A lot. And I’m not inked anywhere. But it like it on you so much. You have such ivory skin, which makes the contrast just stunning.
As for hormones and that time of the month stuff, maybe we’ll all synch up. Stranger things have happened! Might make for a bad scene when everyone is PMSing at once, though. LOOK OUT guy posting strong sexy woman video! LOL!
Keep gettin’ your stripes on Brute. And good luck with your meet plans, and DLing the hell out of everything.
thanks nikki and alexus! PHEWWWWWWW I can let out a sigh of relief the surgery went fine and he is chillin at my work. I went in and helped get him set up since he’s a big scary with people he doesn’t know…man i was nervous.
So needless to say after about 8 protein bars in 2 hours, cheese–yeah i know, and pb–i know again!,–> I have survived what i hope to be the last time i ever have to have anything done to the love of my life (Nigel my dog) I don’t drink, I don’t smoke…I don’t feel bad for doing what had to be done to get over my pathetically frazzled nerves for my baby’s health! OVER
I did do some cardio today, also some on monday and tues i forgot to log. I tried to squat today but i couldn’t. Tomorrow i will have a nasty dairy hangover but I’m prepared to drink some water and deal with it like all the other hungover people on Saturday mornings.
thanks puff!!! Yes… the fish is bothering me, well its not the fish its space around it. Or i could just be wacked out .
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touchy feely introspection interlude brute pep talk
I actually do feel better in a way and less crazed in figuring out my problem. so i’ll be blue for a while, then get out of it. when its run its course it’ll be a nice shining time. its going to be a dirty time for a bit but its a process, and well, that’s just how it is. Just gotta hold tight for a bit.
training wise my head is there and not, but whatever. it’ll be there on the days i feel like i can get it:)
I’m the same way with the depression. It hasn’t helped that the internet hasn’t been my place of escape from the bullshit like I would expect, but like you said, it’ll run its course and then it’ll be nice shining time =)
I hope you feel better.
thanks soldog!! …we’ll just have to see about that meet…i’m taking it day by day. If i do it I hope to show up strong and see everyone at their best too!!!
NIKKI!!! thank you. I love it when you stop by this here brutal part of the internet–you’ve always had a great attitude and insight that have helped me in numerous ways–you are appreciated
thanks alexus and sb!! I want those big pop out hammies!!! that leave the room a few minutes after my ass and such …sigh
OH MAN. I’m still recovering emotionally over a tough night at work Sunday night. Two horribly sad fucked up and separate abuse cases came in with in 20 minutes of each other. Evil shit and more evil- really evil shit. It makes you wonder what dark sun a person rises to…and when they are going to hunt a person down just the same. Some dark evil shit.
so i slept all day yesterday, just 20 mins of cardio today. Back and body feel fine, mind’s a little in left field still. I did cheer myself up by buying three new bras…so hey
That’s terrible Brute!! So freaking terrible! I’m so sorry you had to deal with some evil, fucked up shit I can only say that I’m glad that those animals were in your caring and healing hands, and I thank you for that. You’re so good <3!
You’re squats are incredible!! I’m amazed, simply amazed. And your thighs I’m sure can hypnotize even a the biggest boob man! lol
I’m also feeling the blues, babes I’m “owning” my feelings though, so hopefully it’ll pass - except of course I feel doubly bad b/c I just bailed on my bf on our girly time tonight…sigh…i just want to duck and cover for a bit, you know? I hope she understands. Sorry for the vent!
and when the blue hits me I just remind myself - like a cold, it takes it toll and passes. As human beings we have ups and downs but in this perfectionist society we are not “aloud” to live these downs (blame prozac world). Do a few things each day that makes you smile, find joy in little things and next thing you know the wheel of fortune turns anew.
I know-- it is all alleged until the courts and things have their say etc. Whoever did it needs some serious help.
Good thing though is she’s doing much better and is stitched up and out of the oxygen cage. And because of her story and the fact that she’s a total cutie sweetie she will no doubt get a great home and be spoiled for the rest of her life.
I can only say that I’m glad that those animals were in your caring and healing hands, and I thank you for that. You’re so good <3!