Bodybuilder Turned Fighter?

https://t-nation.com/t/road-to-220lbs-from-176/

that is my training log. I want an amatuer fight and right after that fight i want to keep bulding size…
im 23 years old and i train with professionals(25 fights under their belt)

I really want to be built and jacked but it means nothing to me if i cant kick as with that size… i want to fight at my weight and go up in weight class as i gain muscle… a guy i train with walks around at 180 but fights at 160(or cuts) so i want to keep bulding muscle and get a couple fights under my belt but evntually i want to beast out.

My life is full of different kinds of stress and ive lived a extraordinary life some would say. My diet as you can tell is fucked up if you look in my log and im aware of that… i came from a rough spot in life a couple years ago and ive come a very long way. As i continue to get my shit together(living on my own, providing for myself) i will also improve my diet and training. One thing i know is i have a ton of motivation and i love my traning more than anything in this world, it truly is all i have that means anything to me