sighhhhh
Dude is weirdly obsessed with:
Oh, and being mean to everyone he replies to?? Like seriously, man.
Alright, I’m not one to report posts, but you can fuck right off.
This is the kind of behavior that causes one to get their shit pushed in at your age.
30mins fasted cardio
Torso
Lat Pulldown Wide
180x17
180x9
160x9
Viking Press
100x8
75x11
50x14
Cable Row
180x17
180x13
180x11
Chest Press (partials)
225x14
225x9
225x7
Feeling like it might be time to switch back over to my old log.
Having a hard time getting my shit back in order.
If you don’t currently have a short term goal (physique related), make one now. Examples: weak body part, increase strength on a specific exercise; just something to make each weight training day meaningful.
Thank you.
My goal had been “stop being fat” for so many years… hell, decades, that now having a goal of gaining size at the expense of leanness is really challenging to get behind.
I have the same struggle. I’ve been so absorbed by restricting my food (to avoid being fat) that it was really hard for me to increase my food so I could gain strength. It’s hard to make your brain switch like that.
IMO, it is much like muscle memory. It will be easier to get as lean as you got this last time the next time you diet down. And you will sacrifice less muscle getting that lean. In other words, you will look better.
Well, I can tell you that I know how you feel. I mean, obviously I’ve never been where you are, but I know what it’s like when you feel it slipping away. I’ve been through it multiple times. I think it’s one of the reasons that I am so completely in control when I’m on and why I won’t allow myself to slip even a little bit. I feel like I’m going to lose it all all over again. For me, the thing that has helped a lot this time around is looking at it from a different perspective. I’m eating more and lifting more and my belly (and boobs) are showing a bit of proof of those extra calories. But I’m also showing growth in my lifts. This is a cycle. I’m going through this phase to get to the next phase. Once I accepted that it made it so much easier for me to let go a bit because I know that I’m going to come back around with more to show for it. In a few months it will be time to cut, and I will, but now is not the time for that. I’ve been watching you and all that you have done over the past few months and it’s ridiculously impressive. Now is your time to grow. You’re not getting fat or letting anything slip away. You are moving into the next phase that is required to reach the next better phase. I know I’m probably not the person you would choose to talk to, but I’m always here if there is anything I can do to help or support you.
Thank you, Beth. I appreciate your words and perspective
You’re on the list of people that I care about. 
I feel this. Exact same, but I haven’t yet hit the point that I’ve had in my mind. I got close, then let it slip. I’ve been beating myself up about it for last few weeks.
30mins fasted cardio
Limbs
Meadows Lateral Partials
55x19
55x12
55x9
Quad Ext
70x14
70x10
70x7
Ham Curls (no Failure)
100x20
100x20
100x18
EZ Bar Curls
85x16
75x13
65x14
Overhead Cable Ext
85x17
85x15
85x11
This is the first training session that felt good in a while. Need to keep hitting that feeling. Gotta retrain the reward pathway.
Glad you’re feeling better. Getting body back to homeostasis after assistance might be a reason?
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There’s a lot to that.
Going to close this log out. Back to my old one