Alex_uk: 40 years in the making

04/03/25 - 194.5

50 days left of cutting, sticking to 2 meals and 1 to 2 snacks. I eat from lunch onwards, I’m hungry in the mornings but it’s easy enough to distract myself until lunch, then I can eat a big lunch, my wife actually commented yesterday that I was eating a week’s worth of food, in one meal, slight exaggeration, but looking at the size of food on the plate I was sceptical I would finish it. I did and could have done more and I was hungry for my snack, of which there were 2 yesterday.

Funny how volume of food doesn’t really equal satiety, the body is too smart for that - for reference the meal was probably just over half a lb of 5% beef mince in bolognese sauce, 2 bell peppers, a large onion, half a bag of cherry tomatoes, spring onions, 2 chillis, and half a bag, approx 500g, of baby potatoes.

I am noticing a loss of energy on the fasted walks, and a general feeling of dragging myself through the day, my body knows it’s been in a deficit for a while now!

Down around 12.5lbs, in 13 weeks, which is bang on, it’s not been linear and whilst my food selection has been very good, it’s the quantity that’s made the loss less linear, but I’m not counting and I’m finding it straightforward, I’m also not struggling too badly with the mental side of it, I assume because the slow changes are less noticeable so it’s less dramatic and I’ve probably not ever got depleted, so don’t ever feel flat.

It’s a shame that training has been less than ideal with my injuries, but to be honest it’s probably better than being mid way through a productive gaining season where you’re making progress across the board and feeling on fire then getting cut short.

Walking daily still, not really making much note of it here, it varies usually around 1.5-2.5 miles, always fasted with caffeine and ecgc.

I’ve also developed, what feels like at present, a minor cold, but that’s not helping me feel full of life and energy.

Today’s lifting:

A1) Seated Sumo stretch: 10kg x 8 x 3 sets
A2) gladiator deadlift stretch: 7.5kg x 3 x 3 sets (focused on breathing into the stretch and getting deeper).

Deadlifts: 60, 100, 120, 140kg x 5

Seated OHP: 40, 50, 60, 70kg x 5, 80kg x 4

B1) chin ups: bw, bw, 10, 20kg x 5, 10kg x 10, bw x 15
B2) dips: bw, bw, 10, 20kg x 5, 10kg x 15, bw x 20

C1) clown curls: 7.5kg x 23, 19
C2) (Clown) DB skull crushers: 7.5kg x 24, 23

Rehab was a little better in terms of range of motion and feeling, deadlifts felt hard, 140kg was the set that felt best back wise, was tempted by 160kg, but no need to rush here, just jealous of watching @simo74 absolutely crush a deadlift session!

Seated OHP is going well, that top set saw some dubious “sitting” - a little lift off, every time I’ve done this it’s a default PR, that top set definitely felt like a legit PR today, not confident I’d have got 5. Looking forward to seeing how this progresses once I’m gaining weight, could be my cheating way of getting the 2 plate ohp, my 5/4/3/2 goal hasn’t been forgotten in the cutting madness.

Chins started as chins but hurt my shoulder even unweighted, so moved straight to neutral grip, no point playing silly games, don’t need any more silly prizes!

Can’t tell if my CV recovery is getting worse (seems odd given the increased walking and decreased bw weight), or if it’s cold/cut/tiredness all at kicking in but today felt like I needed extra rest between sets and breathing was a bit harder, also got light headed on the 10kg x 10 rep chins and 20 x be dips. It’s also pretty warm today considering it’s April :man_shrugging:.

The pump on those clown exercises is great, feel like a bodybuilder, partly because its silly exercises and light weight, but also because I put on a 80’s luminous headband to stop sweat running into my eyes, ridiculous looking, but arms look gnarly! (Well as gnarly as my little pistols can).

Good session overall.

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Yup! Took me a long time to learn this lesson myself. I’d GORGE on as many low calorie foods/veggies as I could to try to trick myself into being full, but as you’re observing: full doesn’t mean satiated. We can be full AND hungry at the same time, which is really awful, because we have no more physical room for the food but still want it.

Good to see the cut is going well! Slow and steady.

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Would you say you are stronger at this sitting version of the OHP? I gotta give it to you, those are good numbers.

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You sharing your experience probably helped me recognise this in myself quicker. It’s pretty wild how you can basically endlessly eat and still be hungry if your body has clocked itself as being in a deficit for any length of time. It’s pretty much where I am right now, I’m alright with it, but looking forward to eating more and more fats again.

Always a fascinating experience using your own body as an experiment, seeing how it responds and how different methods have slightly different responses.

Most definitely, I’ve never put 80kg above my head with a standing strict press.

Thanks, I’ll be happier when it’s 2 plates, but it was a pleasant surprise realising I was stronger seated (having never really done it).

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I have a blogpost swirling in my head that basically boils down to “N only needs to equal 1 when you are a solipsist”

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In the world of physical transformation, you can stop that sentence right there, I mean so much of the stuff you (and many others) have done in the past “doesn’t work” and yet the results are there and at the end of the day that’s all that matters.

I guess physical transformation is just inherently a solipsistic pursuit.

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This is definitely the smart thing to do. Just take your time and re-build good movement patterns. You have literally years to get stronger than me.

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I don’t spend loads of time on the internetz, but why is he disliked? Apart from being shockingly repetitive.

Also: I’m excited by your plan. I need to get my ass squatting again.

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Dr. Mike was quite reprehensible in my opinion when I first ran across his YouTube page. It was at that stage in his YouTube life when he and Coach Greg were just starting their Drama Queen contest. Since, I have watched them both in sit down interviews. Dr. Mike has info to share. He can speak without throwing in jr. high vulgarity. I like the myoreps. He is repetitive, I think he puts a lot of stock in the future, which is fine. He sort of grew on me.

Edit: I have been watching Lyle McDonald on YouTube ripping Dr. Mike a new one the last couple of days. I am starting to re-think my opinion. Though, I do not know much about Lyle McDonald. He seems sharp. (McDonald) I think I might binge his interviews. New information is always good. I just get a kick out of the drama that erupts.

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No idea, the internet is weird and I don’t really follow along with it. This about sums it up for me:

Yesterday I spent many hours gardening, it was more like labouring in garden, good and got a lot of work done, but felt the lack of energy from the deficit. Still we had a family evening with home made pizzas, snacks, games and a film, so probably wasn’t in a deficit by the end of the day.

As I was in the garden the work gave me plenty to think about there are some great parallels and allegories within the work.

Lessons from the garden:

On physical transformation

This came back to me as I was mowing the lawn, the garden was completely useless in it’s current state, too overgrown for anyone to get the function of it, as much as an overly manicured garden is a sign of lack of real use and a wasted life there is no virtue in having a completely overgrown garden. An overgrown garden cannot fulfill it’s purpose of being a place to play, relax and enjoy.

In much the same way someone who is “perfect” body wise, is probably spending too much time focusing on perfecting and maintaining perfection and not really enjoying their body except for fleeting glimpses in the mirror. Someone who has let their body go to wrack and ruin doesn’t have the capability to enjoy their body or to have much of an ability to play with their kids or help someone lift something heavy*.

Maybe it isn’t such a solipsistic pursuit after all.

The other lesson on the physical transformation - the lawn was long, really long, I made one pass on the highest setting of the lawn mower, it was significantly shorter, my son looked over (he was weeding the border) and said ah you’re almost done, but I knew from experience that was the easiest and quickest part and whilst you could leave it there because it looked better, it was far from done. The next few runs over took over 3x the amount of grass in terms of volume in bin bags, and the grass underneath is wetter so much harder to get through.

The metaphor here was fat loss, going back to my cut - you drop the first 5-7lbs feel pretty good see some outline abs and think you’re not that far off, but really that’s the easy part, that’s the very light fluff done, next comes the stuff underneath and there is way more there than meets the eye, only by experience can you know how much you’ve got to really get rid of and it’s more and takes longer than you’d expect and it’s harder to get rid of than the initial fluff. I can only imagine what stage ready levels of leanness require.

The lawn also looks it’s best a few days after it’s mown, when is recovered slightly the blades are all upright and greener, I imagine this too be the same when moving back to gaining after a prolonged cut, a few weeks back in to gaining glycogen is restored, energy is higher and therefore the gym performance is up, and you’re still lean from the cut, looking and performing at your best, this lesson is yet to come.

Final thoughts here, my garden after 12 years of living in this house has changed, improved and is more to my liking, but it isn’t where I’d want it to be, this reflects the time effort and money I invested into it, the results are exactly what I put in. That sentence applies word for word to my body, just 38 years instead.

That’s fine my priorities are not always in the garden or the gym, there’s seasons in the garden and seasons in life, I’m still improving, still learning (sometimes, occasionally applying, more to follow on that…) and still growing.

Lessons in knowledge, wisdom, and effort.

When mowing I tried to move from the first trim to the final trim, dropping the height off the mower from highest to lowest. I then spent more time than I care to admit, stop starting my way through trying to mow the grass, as the blades constantly jammed (literally every push), at which point I had to stop, turn the mower over, unjam it and start again. I was fasted and tired and probably not thinking particularly clearly, this just made me cross and more stubborn. Far too much time later I switched settings (at some point having also quit in a strop, had a coffee break and come back), guess what… The middle setting finishes the second pass without a single jam. I then dropped to the lowest setting and again finished jam free.

I wanted to do 2 passes of the lawn and be done, I didn’t want to do a 3rd and grumpily remarked as much to my wife. In doing so I worked harder and longer and got worse results.

Funny enough I knew this, I happen to have this experience, I have the knowledge but in stubbornly trying to do it, I wasn’t applying it, and my knowledge didn’t move from knowledge into application - wisdom.

How often does this happen in training? Trying to add too much to a program, trying to run crazy programs designed for gaining, in a cut, hitting your hardest session of the week after having disturbed sleep, high stress and illness, knowing full well that at best you’ll have a crap session and worse be injured. All personal and recent examples; I’m not a fast learner.

This example also makes me think that when you haven’t done the base work, then you can’t simply go into the advance work, it’s simply not going to work despite the effort. Effort is a wonderful thing but without applying it wisely it’s either wasted or worse ruinous.

Lesson on physical abilities

Final and both obvious and still underappreciated thought. The body is an incredible thing, absolutely mind-blowing, finely tuned and capable of amazing things. A few weeks ago I was in agony with a back injury, yesterday I was moving fence panels (solid 8ft x 8ft made with 6x1 and 3x3 posts) no idea how much they weigh, but they were freaking heavy and awkward.

Pretty sure most men wouldn’t have been able to move them even without the injury, I am blessed to have the body I have that functions so excellently and blessed to be able to keep progressing in my physical attributes.

Final thought, whilst these thoughts are my own, they’re not original, there is nothing new under the sun:

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Love the lawn analogy mate. I couldn’t help thinking that all plants grow better when you feed them and especially if its chemical grade fertilizer. LOL

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Haha it’s the analogy that just keeps giving. The natural fertiliser works to keep the grass healthy and provides a little extra boost, but not really noticeable growth, just helps it reach it’s potential because the soil (food) isn’t as nutritious as it used to be. The chemical grade stuff pushes beyond the natural, but who knows at what cost?

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07/04/25 - 194.5 morning weight

Usual walk

PM training

50kg single arm farmers: 30 secs x 1, then - 1 min up turn back (very short, awkward space lots of picks and about 8 paces) 30 secs rest x 5 sets. Good little rehab warm up.

Zombie squats: 60, 80, 90kg x 5

A1) Low inc bench: 60, 80, 90kg x 5, 100kg x 7
A2) Seated cable row: 80kg x 15 x 4 sets

B1) narrow grip swiss bench: 50, 70, 80, 90kg x 5, 100kg x 4
B2) Neutral grip pull-ups: 8 x 5 sets.

Done - solid work today, zombie squats were solid, slightly dizzy at top sets (need to check BP and potentially look at the electrolytes). Pretty happy with pressing strength at this weight, but the most surprising thing was how much those seated rows lit up my back
I really focused on pulling and using the shoulder blades and getting a solid MMC in as much back musculature as possible and on my penultimate set I paused on the 5th rep and switched to a looser style with more biceps because I started to get close to cramping (now I write that the electrolytes sound more and more sensible…).

Swiss bench is great…apart from my previously injured (not 100% recovered) shoulder hates it. Might be the super narrow grip, I’ll try the next setting out next time, just wanted more Tri work. The failure to get the 5th rep was more positioning than strength I think.

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In other very exciting news, just walked in the door to a package waiting:

Very excited to read this!

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I’m so envious! You can’t ever recapture the magic of the first time reading it.

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I believe you will enjoy it!

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Awesome writeup dude. I’ve always loved Socrates viewpoints on the pursuit of physical excellence. Training the mind or the body to the highest standard you can hold yourself to usually means the other follows close behind.

I don’t think its a coincidence that we have seen such a steep decline in both mental and physical health in america partially due to the lack of inactivity and lack of standards for oneself

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It’s jumped up over my entire reading list, it’s top and will almost certainly be read tomorrow!

I do hope so!

Thanks unusual for gardening to elicit such musings from me!

Yup, a whole host of reasons, I’m still a big believer that life is too comfortable (in the west) and that’s a bad thing (as much as I enjoy comfort), like we have to invent mild discomfort to get back some of what our forefathers had, like step counts and gyms, instead of walking and manual labour. Even the armed forces are increasingly lowering their standards, pretty sad state of affairs.

Also I think there’s a particular shift in culture for men, much less of a community*, far fewer real role models. Might be part of the reason, why superheros have had such a resurgence - where’s the valiant, self sacrificial men who stand up for right and enduring suffering for doing so. Men these days would rather play video games and be Peter Pan, than take responsibility and do hard things. In every culture throughout the ages men have had a ritual that marks the shift to manhood, nowadays we just get drunk, like getting off you face makes you a man. *This is a community still exists unfortunately, the drinking fraternity, men just getting drunk and partying like their still 18 (or 21 in the states) - there is nothing cool about being 40 and getting smashed, it’s sad, no one cares how many beers you can drink, no one is impressed.

Most impressive thing I’ve seen on here this week, and let me go off on a side rant, there are a lot of impressive things here, because this is one of the few communities that exemplifies those dying values I’ve mentioned, and not in some Instagram “let’s go warriors” fake hoorah kind of way - no chest day does not make you a warrior, no having a six pack doesn’t make you a man… this place legitimately is authentic (cliched word that makes me cringe a little to use these days) in displaying those values, anyway, the most impressive thing I’ve seen this week is a 70 year old suffering pain but still wanting to carry on squatting and trying to figure it out, like that is genuinely bad ass. How many guys rock up on this forum for a few short posts and share how they can’t squat or deadlift, always some excuse.

Anyway that was a real ramble, honestly the state of society is dire, and it’s sadening and maddening in equal measure.

In short, I agree.

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I’ve been thinking similar recently. My current thoughts are that people are still as “tribal” as ever, they still try to belong to a group. However because of globalisation, and the internet specifically, that “tribe” can be spread all over the world, and be hand picked to be people just like yourself. Its a very different, and far less healthy version of “community” than when your community was the people you lived close to, and had to coexist with.

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Absolutely!

Yup, definitely less healthy, when you all congregate with a tribe focused on very narrow fields, you miss out of the joy of real community, being with people who think, look and act differently, it opens your perspective and changes you in subtle way, increase empathy and the ability to understand others, even when disagreeing.

I think social media, and the echo chambers that have sprung up within, “canceling” those who hold opposing views and “othering” them (ex-communicating them from the tribe) carry a lot of responsibility for the increasingly polarised world we see at present, because we no longer think we have to:

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