I don’t think you understand where I am coming from. The reason my testimony of the truth is unshaken by attempts to attack the church leadership, or by someone telling me my experiences were not “real” is, that my experiences are not based on some leader telling me what I should and should not except as truth.
My experiences are real. I will share just one with you because it is an illustration of what I am talking about. I was in the USMC for a while. One night while out on patrol I was driving one of our vehicles. This was in the early 90s so the night vision devices were really not that good. Most of us learned that by not focusing and keeping your eyes moving you could see better than by using the goggles. So, I was on patrol, I had a distinct feeling that I should stop the vehicle. I kept driving. Then I heard a voice tell me to stop. I looked around at those in my vehicle to see who told me to stop. No one was talking to me. I kept driving, then I heard the voice again, even louder, it was as if it were screaming in my ear. But, it was not a loud voice, it was not a frantic voice, it brought comfort and warmth to my soul. It was as if some one had enveloped in a peaceful bliss. So, I stopped the vehicle. The SSG next to me asked why I stopped, I told him I just felt that we needed to stop. He got out and walked about ten feet in front of the vehicle and just stood there looking out. I got out and walked to where he was standing. We both just stood there and looked out at the 100 foot drop that we were about ten feet away from driving over.
Now, some may just shrug this off as an intuition or some sort of freak thing that happened. I heard the voice and I knew who and what it was. This has happened to me on more than one occasion. I spent some time over in Iraq, and had many experiences over there that proved to me that God knows who I am. When I say I know that Jesus Christ lives and that he knows who I am, it is not because some church leader told what it would feel like, and then I did nothing to prepare myself to feel of the spirit. I did the things the Lord asks us to do to prepare to feel the spirit. I have felt the spirit. I know what it feels like, I know what the voice of the Holy Ghost sounds like. It is exactly how Nephi describes it in the Book of Mormon, it is a still small voice, which brings about the sweetest joy. It is just indescribable.
So, when you invite me to go down the “Rabbit Hole” I don’t mind. But, are you willing to reach up and grab my hand and allow me to help you up out of the Rabbit Hole? You have been there too long.
Your William Gardener may be right about those members who never take seriously Moroni’s challenge. If you pray with a sincere heart, with REAL intent, the truth will be manifested unto you, by the power of the Holy Ghost, and by the power of the Holy Ghost, you may know the truth of all things.
I’ve said it before, I’m not perfect, I don’t know where I will end up in the grand scheme of things, all I can do is what the Lord asks of me and have faith that if I do those things, Knowing what I know, I will spend the rest of eternity with my wife and family.