I regret that I hadn’t time and desire to write here, but I’m back finally with some fresh experience.
The cycle went good, I’ve gained 12 kg of BW (around 8-10 kg of LBM) in 14 weeks. First 6 weeks were easy (TE + ND + DP), but another 8 were seriously hard (+ OXY + TREN A and crazy training volume, crazy amounts of food). Some mental sides from OXY (sleepiness, weakness during a day) and TREN A (passivity, ignorance, deepening of drowsiness, but no aggression) appeared, plus complete lack of appetite and willingness to act. Classic form of transition from steroid-induced hypomania to slight depression. Just another reason to cycle hard for no more than 3 months (my physicality hasn’t changed much for the last 3 weeks, despite proper training and diet programming and it’s execution).
I’m trying to answer myself a question if it was worth to do such a harsh cycle. Harsh from a mental-only perspective, because my bloodwork is (mainly thanks to prevention and proper stacking drugs) still good. No signs of the liver, hearth or kidneys damage, even with lipids in a range, and just after 2 weeks of cleansing. It’s hard to answer, but it was probably too soon for such a composition of AAS. Yes, gains are crazy and after 3 weeks I’ve kept them, along with strenght increase, and I feel just fine right now on my near-TRT dosage of TE and ND. However, during this time I’ve lost a desire for success in another things in my life. For the last 2 months of the cycle my head was full just of sex and workouts, that’s all. Because of massive stimulation of limbic system’s reward system and lack of cortisol stimulation I haven’t felt that I should move forward. Seriously, it was so hard to continue my education or even go shopping, things were worsened by training and AAS induced tiredness. Fortunately, I was aware of these sides, so happily I haven’t spoiled anything in my life. I won’t repeat that soon - too big sacrifice. It’d be worth trying, let’s say, if you can bulk on AAS just once per year (big cost - big profit - long rest). My next cycle will be composed of milder drugs and with lowered doses for sure.
I continue to workout and diet, starting a mini-cut soon. I have to keep my health, gains and lose those 2% of BF I’ve gained. Waiting for the next semester which begins on Monday :).