My anxiety seems to be about the same as before using gear. Not worse or better. Wish it would have gotten better.
I really only think the confidence came when I dropped fat and started looking like I lifted. Maybe I am just noticing it more, but when I go out in public, it seems like women are eyeing me up a lot more than before. It seems that just talking with various women in normal settings has changed. They seem much more flirty. Playing with their hair, body language, talking longer and going off on tangents. Probably not directly the test, more just changing into a more attractive guy.
I agree, blasting has reduced my need for benzos. Super high T levels when blasting seems to help my lack of GABA I have no clue why. I am only reporting how I feel during this current blast. I still have bouts of anxiety but they are more tolerable. Adding AAS’s has helped my anxiety but has not cured it. I keep looking for that magic formula that will bring me back to something resembling normal. Only time will tell.
As for injectable Dianabol none of my sources offer this, only pills.
It’s interesting you mention this, as for myself I can attest increased dosages of testosterone (linear, distinct correlation) appear to increase my level of anxiety relative to baseline. Goes to show how different we all are.
I haven’t used higher dosages of T (150mg+/wk) in quite a long time, consequently I also haven’t had a panic attack in nearly two years (though I believe therapy/EMDR also helped a great deal with this)
as to inj dianabol. It’s available and relatively easy to find, but why would you want to take it? have you ever tinkered with harsh drugs like this before? Dianabol is notorious for inducing hypertension as well as heavily imparting oestrogenic effects (though the mechanisms for the water retention are multi faceted and not merely mediated by E2, an AI may not take all the bloat away). It’s purportedly a difficult drug to manage, though I’d imagine if you remain conservative with dosages like 10-15mg/day you’d be okay within a highly ACUTE context.
I tried it around two years ago, 15-20mg/day was amazing for 2 wks at a time.
I am not. I was mostly interested in it because the OP started this thread on the injectable. Just part of my learning process. Someone in our hobby brings up something I know little to nothing about I start researching it.
In doing that only anavar and whinny were interesting enough for me to try low doses. Even then I do a lot of monitoring.
For example I did a pre blast blood test to make sure my lipids were mid range or better. I check my blood pressure 2-4 times in 24 hours and have alpha and beta blockers should I have hypertension or a racing heart rate. I also have HCG and anastrozole on hand. Not to mention all the usual liver and kidney support supplements. I just passed steady state on my TE at 500/w and waiting on week 3 for my HGH and I have a mid blast blood test ready for collection.
Wow no anxiety strong enough to trigger a panic attack in 2 years? That is wonderful. You just might be cured. I am lucky to go three days. That does not mean I take a benzo everytime. Most of the time I can work thru it.
This is probably the worst “physical” side effect of AAS imo.
Only happens to some, but those predisposed to it such as myself are severely limited regarding what we theoretically can/can’t use. I’m not comfortable continually bumping up ancillary drugs to extensively combat autonomic dysfunction mediated through external variables, regardless I have no use for blasting nowdays.
Beta adrenergic receptor modulation/upregulation is likely culpable for the cardiac autonomic dysfunction noted by many and some AAS (i.e testosterone and nandrolone) appear to elicit a far stronger sympathomimetic effect than others (like primo). Hell, if you go online/through forums you’ll find some guys can’t even handle trt (like 100mg test/wk), they compare it to being on a hefty dose of speed ALL the time.
I am afflicted by a form of dysautonomia that is under control with the right balance of medication,(feel free to shoot me an email if you’d like to know more :), we’ve spoken through email before though I believe I’ve changed my address since then. It’s in my bio) hence my research into the matter is fairly targeted.
I still suffer from obsessive thought loops/thinking, but therapy/EMDR helped immensely. It should be noted I do take medication for major depressive disorder/GAD that helps (but doesn’t fall under the realm of tranquilizers/benzodiazepines). Anxiety can be an absolute bitch, I can relate to the level of generalised impairment it can elicit regarding day to day plans. I’ve learnt to try be “looser” with things, planning my days/weeks in advance always led to catastrophic anxiety when the slightest variable within my plans failed to eventuate. There were also certain situational circumstances that without fail would lead to “triggers” or whatever you want to call them and I’d freeze/have a little internal meltdown/panic attack.
As life is a fluid medium as opposed to a construct set in stone one needs to be able to leave “wiggle room” for the variables of smaller to intermediate levels of importance. It took time for me to adjust, but living a more “chill/callous” lifestyle has helped immensely.
Don’t take my advice though, I’m not an expert and everyone requires a tailored/different approach catering towards their needs.
For me depression is a bigger issue than the anxiety. I’ve had issues with generally being… Sad for over a decade now, for years I thought said depression was purely reactive but events over the last 18 months have led me to think otherwise. Perhaps an organic cause is present, and I certainly haven’t done myself any favours over the years in terms of mitigating exposure to potentially adverse variables that could impart a long term detrimental effect upon my.mental health and wellbeing. It appears to run in the family to varying degrees of severity (worst being bipolar I), I’m arguably still at risk/undetermined, wouldn’t surprise me at all if I end up with a similar dx; though I do think it’d be a hell of a shame if it turned out that way.
The immediate family member I had who was afflicted by bipolar disorder led a tortured and difficult life, I don’t want my story to turn out that way. I believe I’ve had a difficult enough time
There’s No studies on it, but from my experience oral is way stronger. Oral is definitely more liver toxic, but injectable is still liver toxic. Oral goes through the liver twice, injectable goes through once. There’s a reason oral steroids were created as orals and not injections. Many orals get metabolized into the active metabolite only through oral administration. And the half life is not significantly longer with IM, this is a myth, you def need daily injections with IM.
