[quote]spar4tee wrote:
[quote]orion wrote:
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
My wants feel like needs .[/quote]
Yes, they do.
But, its a lie. [/quote]
If it is, it’s a very useful one[/quote]
A very destructive one too, if you cannot rise above it.
[quote]orion wrote:
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
[quote]orion wrote:
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
My wants feel like needs .[/quote]
Yes, they do.
But, its a lie. [/quote]
If it is, it’s a very useful one[/quote]
A very destructive one too, if you cannot rise above it.
[/quote]
I can see where that is probable
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
I’d like to discuss the merit of having high expectations as pertains to perpetual advancement. I can’t really enjoy things I normally do anymore unless I feel that I’m making something of myself. I feel angry, disappointed, and frustrated with my current progress. I have this relentless hunger that isn’t being satiated. My needs as a man aren’t being met, and frankly, I don’t feel very manly as a result. This purpose of this thread is to engage in intimate discussion on the matters of growing up and obtaining the future you envision for yourself.[/quote]
you’re still hung up on that narrow ass bitch having a business degree?
[quote]Facepalm_Death wrote:
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
I’d like to discuss the merit of having high expectations as pertains to perpetual advancement. I can’t really enjoy things I normally do anymore unless I feel that I’m making something of myself. I feel angry, disappointed, and frustrated with my current progress. I have this relentless hunger that isn’t being satiated. My needs as a man aren’t being met, and frankly, I don’t feel very manly as a result. This purpose of this thread is to engage in intimate discussion on the matters of growing up and obtaining the future you envision for yourself.[/quote]
you’re still hung up on that narrow ass bitch having a business degree?[/quote]
lololololololololololol
It is OK. You are under 20 years old still! You have a lot of time. Don’t worry so much about the future.
[quote]orion wrote:
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
[quote]bdocksaints75 wrote:
What needs are not being met?[/quote]
I suppose financial gain, professional success, and intellectual curiosity/satiation. I feel I should be much further along in life by now. It’s hard not to be envious of the success of my friends when I feel so stagnant. I also have this very deep desire for adventure and exploration.[/quote]
Interesting topic, and I know what you mean.
You simply want, want, want MORE and the voices in your head never stop.
BUT, at least as far as success and intellectual development are concerned you really do not want to stop ever.
Because if you reached the very pinnacle of what you are capable of, the voices in your head would not stop and you would have nowhere left to go to.
Its a journey, one step after the other and, quite frankly, I am looking forward to be being 50 and 60 and 70 because if you dont stop growing it is all very rewarding.[/quote]
This.
I am the same and I realize that there are times when you get disappointed, and feel like you are so far off achieving your goals. It’s very frustrating. You say that you can tell that you are making positive changes in the right direction. That’s good. Celebrate your successes. Don’t focus on perceived failures/shortcomings, just ask yourself if you learned something from them and if you are making progress in the right direction.
I can understand where you’re coming from, but you’re still young. The above post about costs seems to display a mentality that chooses avoidance of pain over seeking reward. If that’s you, then that’s an attitude that will have to be changed in order to be happy and achieve your goals. For me, changing this attitude somewhat unfettered my ambition and confidence (for better or worse lol).
[quote]orion wrote:
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
[quote]bdocksaints75 wrote:
What needs are not being met?[/quote]
I suppose financial gain, professional success, and intellectual curiosity/satiation. I feel I should be much further along in life by now. It’s hard not to be envious of the success of my friends when I feel so stagnant. I also have this very deep desire for adventure and exploration.[/quote]
Interesting topic, and I know what you mean.
You simply want, want, want MORE and the voices in your head never stop.
BUT, at least as far as success and intellectual development are concerned you really do not want to stop ever.
Because if you reached the very pinnacle of what you are capable of, the voices in your head would not stop and you would have nowhere left to go to.
Its a journey, one step after the other and, quite frankly, I am looking forward to be being 50 and 60 and 70 because if you dont stop growing it is all very rewarding.[/quote]
If you had nowhere else to go you would be placed up front and center with the emptiness that comes with seeking everything in goals and ambitions… The ego can only do so much before it runs on wits ends… A mid life crisis is nothing more then the drying up of pushing and striving of the mind, maybe instead of distractions and avoidance a person should move into this sense of space and go past the voices of the mind. Do not get to wrapped up in you’re conditioning or you will never be able to stop and enjoy the roses, you’ll just keep looking for the next thing.
[quote]cstratton2 wrote:
[quote]orion wrote:
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
[quote]bdocksaints75 wrote:
What needs are not being met?[/quote]
I suppose financial gain, professional success, and intellectual curiosity/satiation. I feel I should be much further along in life by now. It’s hard not to be envious of the success of my friends when I feel so stagnant. I also have this very deep desire for adventure and exploration.[/quote]
Interesting topic, and I know what you mean.
You simply want, want, want MORE and the voices in your head never stop.
BUT, at least as far as success and intellectual development are concerned you really do not want to stop ever.
Because if you reached the very pinnacle of what you are capable of, the voices in your head would not stop and you would have nowhere left to go to.
Its a journey, one step after the other and, quite frankly, I am looking forward to be being 50 and 60 and 70 because if you dont stop growing it is all very rewarding.[/quote]
If you had nowhere else to go you would be placed up front and center with the emptiness that comes with seeking everything in goals and ambitions… The ego can only do so much before it runs on wits ends… A mid life crisis is nothing more then the drying up of pushing and striving of the mind, maybe instead of distractions and avoidance a person should move into this sense of space and go past the voices of the mind. Do not get to wrapped up in you’re conditioning or you will never be able to stop and enjoy the roses, you’ll just keep looking for the next thing.
[/quote]
That’s where the desire for adventure and exploration comes from… at least partially
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
[quote]cstratton2 wrote:
[quote]orion wrote:
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
[quote]bdocksaints75 wrote:
What needs are not being met?[/quote]
I suppose financial gain, professional success, and intellectual curiosity/satiation. I feel I should be much further along in life by now. It’s hard not to be envious of the success of my friends when I feel so stagnant. I also have this very deep desire for adventure and exploration.[/quote]
Interesting topic, and I know what you mean.
You simply want, want, want MORE and the voices in your head never stop.
BUT, at least as far as success and intellectual development are concerned you really do not want to stop ever.
Because if you reached the very pinnacle of what you are capable of, the voices in your head would not stop and you would have nowhere left to go to.
Its a journey, one step after the other and, quite frankly, I am looking forward to be being 50 and 60 and 70 because if you dont stop growing it is all very rewarding.[/quote]
If you had nowhere else to go you would be placed up front and center with the emptiness that comes with seeking everything in goals and ambitions… The ego can only do so much before it runs on wits ends… A mid life crisis is nothing more then the drying up of pushing and striving of the mind, maybe instead of distractions and avoidance a person should move into this sense of space and go past the voices of the mind. Do not get to wrapped up in you’re conditioning or you will never be able to stop and enjoy the roses, you’ll just keep looking for the next thing.
[/quote]
That’s where the desire for adventure and exploration comes from… at least partially[/quote]
Use that curiosity and adventure to enter into that unknown territory, Contemplate Who Am I and From who do these thoughts belong when thinking takes over, or the “voices”. See what you find, meditation helps too… Allowing things to be and moving into the space between thoughts, watching the thinker, focus on that awareness that is the silent watcher.
There is a zen saying “The bird of paradise lands only on the hand that does not grasp.”
[quote]cstratton2 wrote:
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
[quote]cstratton2 wrote:
[quote]orion wrote:
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
[quote]bdocksaints75 wrote:
What needs are not being met?[/quote]
I suppose financial gain, professional success, and intellectual curiosity/satiation. I feel I should be much further along in life by now. It’s hard not to be envious of the success of my friends when I feel so stagnant. I also have this very deep desire for adventure and exploration.[/quote]
Interesting topic, and I know what you mean.
You simply want, want, want MORE and the voices in your head never stop.
BUT, at least as far as success and intellectual development are concerned you really do not want to stop ever.
Because if you reached the very pinnacle of what you are capable of, the voices in your head would not stop and you would have nowhere left to go to.
Its a journey, one step after the other and, quite frankly, I am looking forward to be being 50 and 60 and 70 because if you dont stop growing it is all very rewarding.[/quote]
If you had nowhere else to go you would be placed up front and center with the emptiness that comes with seeking everything in goals and ambitions… The ego can only do so much before it runs on wits ends… A mid life crisis is nothing more then the drying up of pushing and striving of the mind, maybe instead of distractions and avoidance a person should move into this sense of space and go past the voices of the mind. Do not get to wrapped up in you’re conditioning or you will never be able to stop and enjoy the roses, you’ll just keep looking for the next thing.
[/quote]
That’s where the desire for adventure and exploration comes from… at least partially[/quote]
Use that curiosity and adventure to enter into that unknown territory, Contemplate Who Am I and From who do these thoughts belong when thinking takes over, or the “voices”. See what you find, meditation helps too… Allowing things to be and moving into the space between thoughts, watching the thinker, focus on that awareness that is the silent watcher.
There is a zen saying “The bird of paradise lands only on the hand that does not grasp.”
[/quote]
Right. I usually just passively let my subconscious work on its won. Just to be clear though. The adventure and exploration I’m seeking is very much physical.
[quote]bdocksaints75 wrote:
There are no more barriers to cross. All I have in common with the uncontrollable and the insane, the vicious and the evil, all the mayhem I have caused and my utter indifference toward it I have now surpassed. My pain is constant and sharp, and I do not hope for a better world for anyone. In fact, I want my pain to be inflicted on others. I want no one to escape. But even after admitting this, there is no catharsis; my punishment continues to elude me, and I gain no deeper knowledge of myself. No new knowledge can be extracted from my telling. This confession has meant nothing.[/quote]
I assume this is a copy and paste from somewhere?
if you put that together on the fly in response to the OP then you’re one smart motherfucker!reads like a final journal entry from a movie like apocalypse now or similar.good stuff.
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
[quote]cstratton2 wrote:
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
[quote]cstratton2 wrote:
[quote]orion wrote:
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
[quote]bdocksaints75 wrote:
What needs are not being met?[/quote]
I suppose financial gain, professional success, and intellectual curiosity/satiation. I feel I should be much further along in life by now. It’s hard not to be envious of the success of my friends when I feel so stagnant. I also have this very deep desire for adventure and exploration.[/quote]
Interesting topic, and I know what you mean.
You simply want, want, want MORE and the voices in your head never stop.
BUT, at least as far as success and intellectual development are concerned you really do not want to stop ever.
Because if you reached the very pinnacle of what you are capable of, the voices in your head would not stop and you would have nowhere left to go to.
Its a journey, one step after the other and, quite frankly, I am looking forward to be being 50 and 60 and 70 because if you dont stop growing it is all very rewarding.[/quote]
If you had nowhere else to go you would be placed up front and center with the emptiness that comes with seeking everything in goals and ambitions… The ego can only do so much before it runs on wits ends… A mid life crisis is nothing more then the drying up of pushing and striving of the mind, maybe instead of distractions and avoidance a person should move into this sense of space and go past the voices of the mind. Do not get to wrapped up in you’re conditioning or you will never be able to stop and enjoy the roses, you’ll just keep looking for the next thing.
[/quote]
That’s where the desire for adventure and exploration comes from… at least partially[/quote]
Use that curiosity and adventure to enter into that unknown territory, Contemplate Who Am I and From who do these thoughts belong when thinking takes over, or the “voices”. See what you find, meditation helps too… Allowing things to be and moving into the space between thoughts, watching the thinker, focus on that awareness that is the silent watcher.
There is a zen saying “The bird of paradise lands only on the hand that does not grasp.”
[/quote]
Right. I usually just passively let my subconscious work on its won. Just to be clear though. The adventure and exploration I’m seeking is very much physical.[/quote]
The physical and everything else is already completely connected so there is no separation. What are you looking for? New experiences? Travel?
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
[quote]cstratton2 wrote:
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
[quote]cstratton2 wrote:
[quote]orion wrote:
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
[quote]bdocksaints75 wrote:
What needs are not being met?[/quote]
I suppose financial gain, professional success, and intellectual curiosity/satiation. I feel I should be much further along in life by now. It’s hard not to be envious of the success of my friends when I feel so stagnant. I also have this very deep desire for adventure and exploration.[/quote]
Interesting topic, and I know what you mean.
You simply want, want, want MORE and the voices in your head never stop.
BUT, at least as far as success and intellectual development are concerned you really do not want to stop ever.
Because if you reached the very pinnacle of what you are capable of, the voices in your head would not stop and you would have nowhere left to go to.
Its a journey, one step after the other and, quite frankly, I am looking forward to be being 50 and 60 and 70 because if you dont stop growing it is all very rewarding.[/quote]
If you had nowhere else to go you would be placed up front and center with the emptiness that comes with seeking everything in goals and ambitions… The ego can only do so much before it runs on wits ends… A mid life crisis is nothing more then the drying up of pushing and striving of the mind, maybe instead of distractions and avoidance a person should move into this sense of space and go past the voices of the mind. Do not get to wrapped up in you’re conditioning or you will never be able to stop and enjoy the roses, you’ll just keep looking for the next thing.
[/quote]
That’s where the desire for adventure and exploration comes from… at least partially[/quote]
Use that curiosity and adventure to enter into that unknown territory, Contemplate Who Am I and From who do these thoughts belong when thinking takes over, or the “voices”. See what you find, meditation helps too… Allowing things to be and moving into the space between thoughts, watching the thinker, focus on that awareness that is the silent watcher.
There is a zen saying “The bird of paradise lands only on the hand that does not grasp.”
[/quote]
Right. I usually just passively let my subconscious work on its won. Just to be clear though. The adventure and exploration I’m seeking is very much physical.[/quote]
Just a thought. You might consider transferring to a different school? I don’t know specifics about the cost of living in you’re current situation, but you might be able to find a good school in a cheaper city, or a city with better opportunities for employment that are flexible when it comes to studying undergrad and working part time. For instance cities where major corporations with engineering opportunites (boeing, lockheed martin, sunoco, shell, in general aerospace, automotive and petroleum will need mech engineers) are located, there will be a good chance of getting an internship as an undergrad; that kind of work will be better in the long run. Its also a chance to see a new city
[quote]Facepalm_Death wrote:
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
[quote]cstratton2 wrote:
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
[quote]cstratton2 wrote:
[quote]orion wrote:
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
[quote]bdocksaints75 wrote:
What needs are not being met?[/quote]
I suppose financial gain, professional success, and intellectual curiosity/satiation. I feel I should be much further along in life by now. It’s hard not to be envious of the success of my friends when I feel so stagnant. I also have this very deep desire for adventure and exploration.[/quote]
Interesting topic, and I know what you mean.
You simply want, want, want MORE and the voices in your head never stop.
BUT, at least as far as success and intellectual development are concerned you really do not want to stop ever.
Because if you reached the very pinnacle of what you are capable of, the voices in your head would not stop and you would have nowhere left to go to.
Its a journey, one step after the other and, quite frankly, I am looking forward to be being 50 and 60 and 70 because if you dont stop growing it is all very rewarding.[/quote]
If you had nowhere else to go you would be placed up front and center with the emptiness that comes with seeking everything in goals and ambitions… The ego can only do so much before it runs on wits ends… A mid life crisis is nothing more then the drying up of pushing and striving of the mind, maybe instead of distractions and avoidance a person should move into this sense of space and go past the voices of the mind. Do not get to wrapped up in you’re conditioning or you will never be able to stop and enjoy the roses, you’ll just keep looking for the next thing.
[/quote]
That’s where the desire for adventure and exploration comes from… at least partially[/quote]
Use that curiosity and adventure to enter into that unknown territory, Contemplate Who Am I and From who do these thoughts belong when thinking takes over, or the “voices”. See what you find, meditation helps too… Allowing things to be and moving into the space between thoughts, watching the thinker, focus on that awareness that is the silent watcher.
There is a zen saying “The bird of paradise lands only on the hand that does not grasp.”
[/quote]
Right. I usually just passively let my subconscious work on its won. Just to be clear though. The adventure and exploration I’m seeking is very much physical.[/quote]
Just a thought. You might consider transferring to a different school? I don’t know specifics about the cost of living in you’re current situation, but you might be able to find a good school in a cheaper city, or a city with better opportunities for employment that are flexible when it comes to studying undergrad and working part time. For instance cities where major corporations with engineering opportunites (boeing, lockheed martin, sunoco, shell, in general aerospace, automotive and petroleum will need mech engineers) are located, there will be a good chance of getting an internship as an undergrad; that kind of work will be better in the long run. Its also a chance to see a new city
[/quote]
No, I’m fine with where I’m at. I’m setting myself up for much better options next time.
[quote]cstratton2 wrote:
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
[quote]cstratton2 wrote:
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
[quote]cstratton2 wrote:
[quote]orion wrote:
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
[quote]bdocksaints75 wrote:
What needs are not being met?[/quote]
I suppose financial gain, professional success, and intellectual curiosity/satiation. I feel I should be much further along in life by now. It’s hard not to be envious of the success of my friends when I feel so stagnant. I also have this very deep desire for adventure and exploration.[/quote]
Interesting topic, and I know what you mean.
You simply want, want, want MORE and the voices in your head never stop.
BUT, at least as far as success and intellectual development are concerned you really do not want to stop ever.
Because if you reached the very pinnacle of what you are capable of, the voices in your head would not stop and you would have nowhere left to go to.
Its a journey, one step after the other and, quite frankly, I am looking forward to be being 50 and 60 and 70 because if you dont stop growing it is all very rewarding.[/quote]
If you had nowhere else to go you would be placed up front and center with the emptiness that comes with seeking everything in goals and ambitions… The ego can only do so much before it runs on wits ends… A mid life crisis is nothing more then the drying up of pushing and striving of the mind, maybe instead of distractions and avoidance a person should move into this sense of space and go past the voices of the mind. Do not get to wrapped up in you’re conditioning or you will never be able to stop and enjoy the roses, you’ll just keep looking for the next thing.
[/quote]
That’s where the desire for adventure and exploration comes from… at least partially[/quote]
Use that curiosity and adventure to enter into that unknown territory, Contemplate Who Am I and From who do these thoughts belong when thinking takes over, or the “voices”. See what you find, meditation helps too… Allowing things to be and moving into the space between thoughts, watching the thinker, focus on that awareness that is the silent watcher.
There is a zen saying “The bird of paradise lands only on the hand that does not grasp.”
[/quote]
Right. I usually just passively let my subconscious work on its won. Just to be clear though. The adventure and exploration I’m seeking is very much physical.[/quote]
The physical and everything else is already completely connected so there is no separation. What are you looking for? New experiences? Travel?
[/quote]
I know everything is connected. I was just clarifying. I’m mostly looking for answers, enlightenment, and rebirth.
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
[quote]Facepalm_Death wrote:
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
[quote]cstratton2 wrote:
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
[quote]cstratton2 wrote:
[quote]orion wrote:
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
[quote]bdocksaints75 wrote:
What needs are not being met?[/quote]
I suppose financial gain, professional success, and intellectual curiosity/satiation. I feel I should be much further along in life by now. It’s hard not to be envious of the success of my friends when I feel so stagnant. I also have this very deep desire for adventure and exploration.[/quote]
Interesting topic, and I know what you mean.
You simply want, want, want MORE and the voices in your head never stop.
BUT, at least as far as success and intellectual development are concerned you really do not want to stop ever.
Because if you reached the very pinnacle of what you are capable of, the voices in your head would not stop and you would have nowhere left to go to.
Its a journey, one step after the other and, quite frankly, I am looking forward to be being 50 and 60 and 70 because if you dont stop growing it is all very rewarding.[/quote]
If you had nowhere else to go you would be placed up front and center with the emptiness that comes with seeking everything in goals and ambitions… The ego can only do so much before it runs on wits ends… A mid life crisis is nothing more then the drying up of pushing and striving of the mind, maybe instead of distractions and avoidance a person should move into this sense of space and go past the voices of the mind. Do not get to wrapped up in you’re conditioning or you will never be able to stop and enjoy the roses, you’ll just keep looking for the next thing.
[/quote]
That’s where the desire for adventure and exploration comes from… at least partially[/quote]
Use that curiosity and adventure to enter into that unknown territory, Contemplate Who Am I and From who do these thoughts belong when thinking takes over, or the “voices”. See what you find, meditation helps too… Allowing things to be and moving into the space between thoughts, watching the thinker, focus on that awareness that is the silent watcher.
There is a zen saying “The bird of paradise lands only on the hand that does not grasp.”
[/quote]
Right. I usually just passively let my subconscious work on its won. Just to be clear though. The adventure and exploration I’m seeking is very much physical.[/quote]
Just a thought. You might consider transferring to a different school? I don’t know specifics about the cost of living in you’re current situation, but you might be able to find a good school in a cheaper city, or a city with better opportunities for employment that are flexible when it comes to studying undergrad and working part time. For instance cities where major corporations with engineering opportunites (boeing, lockheed martin, sunoco, shell, in general aerospace, automotive and petroleum will need mech engineers) are located, there will be a good chance of getting an internship as an undergrad; that kind of work will be better in the long run. Its also a chance to see a new city
[/quote]
No, I’m fine with where I’m at. I’m setting myself up for much better options next time.[/quote]
I’m not saying that I’m not open to interning in different cities though.
[quote]orion wrote:
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
[quote]orion wrote:
[quote]spar4tee wrote:
My wants feel like needs .[/quote]
Yes, they do.
But, its a lie. [/quote]
If it is, it’s a very useful one[/quote]
A very destructive one too, if you cannot rise above it.
[/quote]
Yep. If your every want feels like a need there can be no freedom, even given infinite time and resources to pursue them all to their ends. You will always be a prisoner to your own compulsions even if you are “free” to indulge them all. Hungry ghosts and all…
[quote]flipya4it wrote:
[quote]bdocksaints75 wrote:
There are no more barriers to cross. All I have in common with the uncontrollable and the insane, the vicious and the evil, all the mayhem I have caused and my utter indifference toward it I have now surpassed. My pain is constant and sharp, and I do not hope for a better world for anyone. In fact, I want my pain to be inflicted on others. I want no one to escape. But even after admitting this, there is no catharsis; my punishment continues to elude me, and I gain no deeper knowledge of myself. No new knowledge can be extracted from my telling. This confession has meant nothing.[/quote]
Its from american psycho which is what op original post reminded me of
I assume this is a copy and paste from somewhere?
if you put that together on the fly in response to the OP then you’re one smart motherfucker!reads like a final journal entry from a movie like apocalypse now or similar.good stuff.[/quote]
[quote]bdocksaints75 wrote:
[quote]flipya4it wrote:
[quote]bdocksaints75 wrote:
There are no more barriers to cross. All I have in common with the uncontrollable and the insane, the vicious and the evil, all the mayhem I have caused and my utter indifference toward it I have now surpassed. My pain is constant and sharp, and I do not hope for a better world for anyone. In fact, I want my pain to be inflicted on others. I want no one to escape. But even after admitting this, there is no catharsis; my punishment continues to elude me, and I gain no deeper knowledge of myself. No new knowledge can be extracted from my telling. This confession has meant nothing.[/quote]
I assume this is a copy and paste from somewhere?
if you put that together on the fly in response to the OP then you’re one smart motherfucker!reads like a final journal entry from a movie like apocalypse now or similar.good stuff.[/quote]
Its from american psycho which is what op original post reminded me of
[/quote]
I guess I should feel honored
[quote]bdocksaints75 wrote:
[quote]flipya4it wrote:
[quote]bdocksaints75 wrote:
There are no more barriers to cross. All I have in common with the uncontrollable and the insane, the vicious and the evil, all the mayhem I have caused and my utter indifference toward it I have now surpassed. My pain is constant and sharp, and I do not hope for a better world for anyone. In fact, I want my pain to be inflicted on others. I want no one to escape. But even after admitting this, there is no catharsis; my punishment continues to elude me, and I gain no deeper knowledge of myself. No new knowledge can be extracted from my telling. This confession has meant nothing.[/quote]
Its from american psycho which is what op original post reminded me of
I assume this is a copy and paste from somewhere?
if you put that together on the fly in response to the OP then you’re one smart motherfucker!reads like a final journal entry from a movie like apocalypse now or similar.good stuff.[/quote]
[/quote]
thanks-I actually haven’t seen it.looks like i’ll have to get up to date with that one.
cheers,