[quote]bushidobadboy wrote:
Great thread![/quote]
I agree! BTW this it hueyOT. NIce to see you here, bro. I’m really pleased with the turn-out this thread received. I will update this thread later with a bit of my personal learning as I ‘get to know’ Crohn’s/U.C. and how it affects me.
I was doing really well for awhile but just yesterday I felt like I was having another flare-up. I think stress does it to me. As I stated earlier, my initial outbreak and diagnosis occured at an extremely stressful time in my life. I had a falling out with my best friend, I was having money issues trying to pay for the following school semester and my student loan, and I was working around 70-80 hours a week. Also, I was obviously NOT working out and I was eating horrible food, it was fast food for me all the time. A very stressful time in my life, indeed.
Anyways as I was saying, I’ve recently been having some difficulty sleeping, I feel like I have anxiety at night in anticipation of my responsibilities for the next day which winds me up when I should be UNWINDING. I feel like this stress is aggravating my condition and I feel like I will have a flare-up, again. I’ve missed work and school and training due to this condition and it stresses me out even more, kinda like a vicious circle.
To make matters worse, just as I thought my best friend with whom I had a falling out during the summer (an apparently popular T-member who shall remain nameless) was ready and mature enough to reconcile and salvage some shred of the friendship, my friend stabs me in the back again and makes it clear to me that any form of the friendship is beyond repair. Ah well, I realized long ago that this was probably the inevitable conclusion of our relations, but it’s upsetting to me to really accept the finality of it. At the end of the day, it takes TWO people to have a friendship, you can’t have a one-way friendship. It’s like that phrase, ‘respect is a two-way street’. And since the respect in our friendship only goes one-way, I have no choice but to accept its termination. If someone or something only brings negativity to your life, you gotta remove that bullshit from your mind. My health and mental well-being is too important to me to waste on people who aren’t worth my time.
I want to thank people for contributing to this thread and I will update it after I learn more about the disease and after I meet some new specialists. I am seeing another gastroenterologist in Februrary, hopefully he can give me some insight.
Thanks again.